bOuNcInG iNsAnElY

2006-11-25T06:18:00.000-08:00

2006-11-23T07:27:00.000-08:00

work is tiring.but fulfilling.haha.wad an oxymoron.
think about the money, zhixin!
haha.now, im talking to myself.
anw, trying to psycho people to go play pool tmr.
and the converstaion with zw and ak was retarded.
haha.so much for trying to organise a pool outing tmr.
LOL.

okay.a recap of the week.

friday:class chalet check out.
spent the whole thurs night awake
playing card games
eating, nightwalk in pasir ris park.
played freeze and melt.
the merry-go-round.
and watched the pretty stars!
spent two hrs in macs playing snap
with phebe, cynthia, clarence, vernon, jason and zhanwei.
everyone else was asleep.
macs breakfast.
then home.bathe and rushed to beautyworld.
pool!!!! like finally.
after almost a year of hiatus.LOL.
met mel and cyn and orbeet in town.
bought jer's present.
met moley to watch step up.
DAMN nice.((:
went to the doc's to get mc and medicine.
home sweet home.

saturday:
MC.spend the enitre day
watching videos, sleeping, eating,
and trying to sleep off the medication.

sunday:
lijing left for myanmar.i cant wait for her to get back
so we can go eat pepperlunch.
SMARTY's birthday! she is finally seventeen.
ahah.
work at the shop.12-8pm.
fun.wrapping presents!((:
mary wanted to name me amelia
and cecilia wanted to name me denise.
doinks.i getting new names
cos mary can remember my name.haha.

monday:
work.11-8pm.
packing up stuff in the shop.
rush to buy jer's belt with kake and chris.
after work, obviously.

tueday:
jerilyn's SEVENTEEN birthday.((:
lunch at fish and co. with TCALS minus mellie.
i left before mellie reached.
bluff jer that we dint get cake and present.
but cyn and i met up earlier to get cake at taka
and told the fish and co. people to help us keep.((:
present was kept in my bag and we had to pass the card arnd
without letting jer see
so all the tcals can fill it up.((:
at least jer was surprised!((:HAHA.

WORK.2-8pm.
went to warehse to collect paperbags.
damn heavy.at least the cab driver complimented me.((:
she said i was pro enuff to carry it.((:
but was abit pissed off
cos geraldine was so impatient with me.
roars.nvm.tahan.

met kake after work for awhile.
she had to run errand.

wednesday:
WORK.11-8pm.
went to warehse to collect some stuff and to scan stuff.
damn fun.haha.but the warehse is starting to get creepy.
eeks.cos the hi-fi set is not receiving anything.
so i dun get to hear music.
and its too quiet in there.hair stands.

shopping after work.went library.
got a present for baby noel too!
so sad i cant attend his bday bash.):
i end work at ulu mulu time.sighs.
(think about the money, zhixin!)

today:
work.11-8.40pm.
run errands at the bank,
photocopyshop and laundry shop.
warehse scanning as usual
and arrange for courier service.
back to shop and went to STEAM-IRON clothes.
66 pieces of spring/summer collection
for tmr's press release.
i burnt my palm
by stupidly putting my palm on the iron.
how dumb can i get?
doinks.
burnt my knuckles too.stupid iron!
rush back to shop at 8.40pm.
so late.
met alvin yap at the busstop.
just my luck.:P
home sweet home.
my arms ache tho.

that was my busy week.SIGHS.
(think about the money, zhixin!)

i miss having time to watch videos at home.
spent abit on cab fare
cos i was almost late for work.SIGHS.
i miss having time to go out whenever i want.
i miss trng.the feeling of having a stick
and hitting the ball.
the twhack sound.
i miss watching movies
and going out with moley and co.
i miss TCALS.ALOT.
i miss jingonut.
and most of all,
i miss having the time to -- SHOP.

night to all.

2006-11-14T06:05:00.000-08:00

whoopee.im finally going to start work.LALA.
FINALLY, there's something to do.
relief.

let's see how it goes tmr then.
((:
adious.

2006-11-13T05:30:00.000-08:00

bahh.i cant wait to go genting.
and to find a job.
seriously, i feel like i wasting my holiday away.
i dun even feel like going for training.
i think im getting influenced by jiaqi the slacker.
haha.sorry jiaqi!had to drag ur name in.HAHA!((:

i need a break from the usual.
its starting to get mundane and BORING.
i NEED to get out of my comfort zone.
i cant believe im typing this.BAHH.

2006-11-06T02:07:00.000-08:00

gahh.home sweet home.
after spending one day at school for pw, im ready to go home straight.
poof.i dun understand why we have to do pw.
pukes.OP on thursday.bahh.
i cant wait for OP to end.

cant wait to go genting.
im really sick of the schedule.
its like i dun have a life.
sighs.

watching convenant tmr with lydia and maybe kake.
whee.

View From Heaven - Yellowcard
I'm just so tired
Won't you sing me to sleep
Fly through my dreams
So I can hitch a ride
With you tonight
And get away from this place
Have a new name and face
I just ain't the same without you in my life

2006-10-30T08:22:00.000-08:00

some stuff got me thinking again.

im glad i took that iniative and if, at anytime, anything i say doesnt agree with u, could u please tell me so we can establish some semblance of trust.i dont want to be insensitive which will result in misunderstandings again.alright?

take care.i duno if the person u were talking about is her.but i think u shldnt think so much about it.yupp.cya.

nights.

2006-10-30T08:07:00.000-08:00

just typed I&R after a long day of training.
think im brain dead already.
nevertheless, i want to thank moley and gang for that really fun day at the beach.
and to some special people
who have been there for me without any expectations.((:
THANKS LOADS.

going to the beach was a nutty thing to do
cos i turned really brown.
but going to bugis was GREAT.
whee.my new FRED PERRY bag.
my new love.waha.

got hit in the forhead by the freaking soccer ball.
this is one of the reasons why i hated soccer.
ROAR.

lynette is dting me out.
haha.i feel so wanted.((:
shopping.whee.

sad news.
my dad is going to cut my allowance.
sighs.
maybe no more nice x'mas presents for my friends.
bahh.
we shall make do la.((:

cheerios.time to SLEEP.

2006-10-19T06:18:00.000-07:00

went town with kake today.
that crazy girl made me walk all over town.
lucky i had the foresight to make her take a bus,
before my legs gave out.
she said ckris want to date me.
that two people are nuts.bahh.

i bought my favourite moose!whee.
im flying on sat.whee.
shop shop shop.
i bought this really cute lock from wood would.
beetlebug!((:

bio spa tmr.
training cancelled.
baking cookies at jiaqi's HOUSE!whee.
yummy.

two hour of GP tmr.
think i will just die and rot there.
got to go study alrdy.
bio bio bio.poof.

till the next time.((:

2006-10-15T03:06:00.000-07:00

think im turning into a nerd.
bought 7 books after spending one and a half hour hunting in bras basah.
spent 50 bucks on my younger brother's birthday present even though its a month away.
im going to be broke by next week.
wad more im going to shop in bangkok.
goodness.

jerilyn and mel are in a scandalous affair.
haha.
no wonder mel kept proposins to jerilyn on wed
with the bunch of daisies meant for jiaqi.
hahah.

at least, i pass everything for promos.
now we just hafta wait for the final results.
and now, its a madrush to finalize and finish oral presentation.
bleah.

send a really long msg to someone.
maybe this would clear up some stuff.
im sorry.
sometimes, your words seem superficial.
i dun know why.
nvm.

time to let go.

2006-10-09T19:42:00.000-07:00

vivocity is HUGE.
hoping to shop at GAP and PULL AND BEAR.
no money tho.
i passed econs and chinese.
more subjects to go.
tmr, its gona be chemistry.
haha.we shall see.
think i screwed my promos.
who cares.
time to get a haircut.

i need a break.

2006-10-07T07:17:00.000-07:00

im bored.
i want to go shopping.
all girls are into retail therapy, arent they.
but the situation is never right.
poof.
somehow, nothing really seems to entice me.
must be the haze.
WADEVER.
went TCALs outing today.we ate at NewYorkNewYork at citylink mall.
not bad.
its nice actually, and they gave us candyfloss.((:
some pictures at jerilyn's blog.
the retarded things we do.
time to clear up all the hanging stuff.
once and for all.

happy news for once.
im going bangkok for a short trip!
like finally.
CHEAP SHOPPING!

anw, wk is irritating me.
with his nonsense.
bleah.
play game.((:

2006-10-04T08:49:00.000-07:00

whee.promos are finally over!and as i promised, i fixed the tagboard back alrdy.((:
anw, im gona haf fun and relax over the next 4 days.im looking forward to meeting lai kake tmr for movie day out!whee.bitchy films, here i come.haha
i need retail therapy!lynette, we better meet soon!((:

for tonight, adios people.

2006-09-26T08:24:00.000-07:00

Wish you'd been
Careful with my heart
But you tore it apart
And broke an angel's heart

i miss those days of fun and craziness. where did all that time go?

sighs.i miss you, you know that?i wish for the better but is it just wistful thinking on my part?maybe things has never been real for us.maybe it had just been a hoax all along.pretense is the most cursed thing ever, but truthfully, have we been real at all?

iwanttoflyaway.fromallthemiseryandmess.

2006-09-20T07:10:00.000-07:00

Your subtleties
They strangle me
I can't explain myself at all.
And all that wants
And all that needs
All I don't want to need at all.

my blog is under renovations.so if u wana tag, im sorry to say you will have to wait till my promos are over and i got the time to fix this properly.

complainscomplainscomplains. bleah. daddy refused to let me go for yunan trip. poof. nvm. if jiaqi they all are still set on the trip to m'sia at the end of the year, i will have to save for my own expenditures. bleah.

something remains unresolved because BUSY-me duno how to reply. poof. sorry.

good news:
my beloved papillos are HERE! in my room.haha.PRETTAYE.((:

i need to engage in retail therapy soon.even though, the stress factor is still relatively low, im BLOODY sick of studying the same thing over and over again. i think chemistry is a CURSED subject. we should have boycotted doing all those chem qns. SHEESH. i dun see how on earth am im supposed to mug for bio when im doing chem ALL THE TIME.think im going to fail bio.so glad that there's no maths for now.i wonder what is it going to be like for A's. BLEAH.promos is in like 1 week.im dead.

i can only hope for the better.just wondering when.

I'm not dead just floating
Right between the ink of your tattoo
In the belly of the beast we turned into
I'm not scared just changing
Right beyond the cigarette and the devilish smile
You're my crack of sunlight

2006-09-10T07:07:00.000-07:00

WR is under progress.i SHLDNT have left it till like NOW.i shld haf done sumthing LONG ago.sheesh.serve me right.celebrated yew and soh's BELATED birthdays.NEVERTHELESS, they are the BESTEST friends i can ever get to know.im BLESSED.LOVE LOADS.
and many more.love you all!((:

HAHA.you logic sucks.you know that?do it YOUR way then.

2006-09-04T08:21:00.000-07:00

holidays are here but it doesnt seem like it.TRUE, that we dun hafta wake up early and all.but still, im like waking up just to go swimming.MAYBE i can get rid of my fats.LOL.lydia is gona slap me.HAHA!but then, wadever!im gona stick to an apple-only diet.LOL.so i can still eat my apple dippers.WHAHAH!anw, time to SNOOZE.tmr is a long DAY!

u know.we know that its not going to work out and it sucks to try so hard when its simply going to fail.i duno about you.but im done with it.nothing i do can reassure you, so what's the point.i duno why you keep up with that front.seriously, when you are being so upset and all behind my back.please be yourself.cos its just appalling for me to try and accept the hypocrisy of it all.

why do i always have to be involved in all this SHIT!?

2006-08-27T01:54:00.000-07:00

After all this time
I never thought we'd be here
Never thought we'd be here
When my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it

blah.i think mugging for promos is taking its toll on me.headachesHEADACHESheadaches.poof.seriously, i need a break.rarr.i need sleep, without having to think about school.i need to make you listen, so i wouldnt regret later on.i need to mug, so i can go far.

im freaking broke.and i cant wait to get my birkie's.all that sacrifice for material wants.but then, i rather be skinny then spend all that money on food.POOF.lydia got a FUNNY brother.LOL.long story.i miss going out just for pure fun and entertainment.i hate to be cooped up in macdonald's studying away.why cant i be born smart?so i wun haf to study.SHEESH.
i need to go NAP.poof.

You look down on me, but you don't look down on me at all.
You smile and laugh, and I feel the love you have for me.
I think we're going somewhere.
We're on to something good here, and we're gonna make it after all.

endlessNEEDS.

2006-08-20T07:38:00.000-07:00

SACCHARINE as edited by jan.haha, thanks!
all the madrush for the planning of the celebration, and the hurried shopping for the presents, and now its like over.so sad.HAHA.
went far east sub.ate and surprised her with presents by making them seem like they grew out of her bag everytime she left her seat.
bluffed her to go pacific plaza while they light the candles and stuff.walked there and back and along the way saw a few people. yenkiat and haowen.and i forgot his name.LOL.brought her back to subway and covered her eyes back on the way to our seats.she looked so TOUCHED.but then that was the point wasnt it?haha.
in total, 2 nike shirts, a pair of nike socks, a mambo wallet, a bunch of daisies, a penguin water dispenser, an esprit belt and 3 pair of button earrings.she is madly in love with us alrdy.LOL.
im so broke i can live on bread and water.BOOHOO.haha.but it was all worthwhile.it went well, and i think i understand what went wrong then.LOL.
nevertheless, one weekend well spent even though i didnt mug.haha.PROMOS cuming.mugmugmug!sighs.my life is all about mugging right now.SHEESH.

lydia's brother says i am pretty(!!!) and i think their conversation about me qte funny.LOL.shows how lame lydia and borther can get.MUAHAHAH.lydia, i miss you alrdy.

yixuan cuming back jj.WHEE.i cant wait to see her retarded face.MUAHAHAH.

2006-08-18T22:49:00.000-07:00

HAPPY SACHHARRINE(or wadeva it's supposed to be spelt) SWEET 17TH BIRTHDAY TO LAI JIAQI!

the ultra hyper and nutty and enthu and mad girl has turned 17 today. and she blew her candle at 12am last night at my house with a brownie as a cake.she made sooo much noise, i bet my whole family got woken up by her. and she kept calling DOM(dirty old man).haha.different dom la.LOL.and complain and rant about everything. anw, she got a stitch for a pet and was carrying a bunch of unmatching flowers around town.LOL.kept me up till 2.30am. i feel sooo deprived of sleep.HAHA.

thanks to you, i had to hurriedly change bedsheets and all to await ur arrival.HAHAH!

anw, want thank phebe and jane to motivate me to stay in hockey. i actually wanted to quit alrdy.but well, hockey is my passion and bu she de.haha.and jing had a point.jc without cca is like such a bore.blah.thanks peeps.((:

HOCKEY is the game, PASSION is the gain!

whoever the person who called me is, he should be burnt.haha.for making me so bloody pissed that i hafta stop my game midway.haha.nevertheless, i still wonder how you got my number and where u got it from.brrrr.

btw, not getting birkie's anymore, cos jiaqi's friend calculated wrongly and im in no position to afford the birkie's now.maybe i will just buy it next month from holland v.din get to go zoo either.haha.at least im going to the library later.whee.

promos cuming.time to mug.

`willyoustillbethereformelikeyousaidyouwillbe?

2006-08-15T08:58:00.000-07:00

whee.its real sweet of LYNETTE SOH to feature me on her blog.i think its REALLY coincidental that she happen to call when im on the train at dover heading towards bouna vista.and she wanted to go bugis today instead of tmr.haha.cool huh?

[LYNETTE]
hey.thanks for that post.really.actually, what u said made me come to some major realisation too.so this meeting today was just a benefit to you.it was to us both.maybe we are just simply fated to meet up and talk about things today.its worth having to stay up late to do work, to have gone on an emotional overhaul today.u brightened up my day too.thanks to you, im like super hyper.haha.really blessed to happen to be there when u needed me to be.take care! love loads.
btw, i can take such verbal affectionate words.its just wad circumstances its being used in.haha.

loads of things happening this week.i think im in a super stressed up and busy week.im feeling really overwhelmed.i dun know what's happening.i need a break.seriously.maybe i should just go to the doctor's and get an mc if my sorethroat gets any worse.well, some things to be happy about:

1. getting another pair of papillo. for only 64bucks.whee.THAT'S LIKE SUPER CHEAP.
2. im going to the ZOO on saturday with RYAN and ZACHARY.i miss them so much, i wonder why though.
3. its JIAQI's birthday SOON.HAPPY ADVANCED 17th BIRTHDAY, JIAQI!
4. im exempted from taking the MATHS promotional exam.WHEE! one less subject to mug.i need all the time i can now.

and some things to rant about.

you know what, you guys are SO right.its such a waste of time that you all rather skip something this important.if you thought about it, we desperately need time too.does it ever occur to you to feel ashamed of yourselves? seriously, to think of all the things she did for you all and this is how you wana treat her.if that's the case, we could have skipped yours too.

BUT we didnt, and went through it willingly and rather happily.i would appreciate it if you all make some effort to return the favor and do exactly the same when its your turn.sometimes, i really question myself, what is wrong with you all.

common test results are BACK. A B D for H2 subjects isnt that fantastic. and B for H1.at least my H1 imporved.nevertheless, lets just hope that my dad doesnt express his resentment and suggest taking me out of JC again. i need to buy the bio textbook.sheesh.and i need loads of consultation.ROAR.

STRESSED.promos are coming and im so freaking busy that im losing one week of time for studies.HOW ON EARTH AM I GOING TO GET PROMOTED?crap.i like super BROKE this month and im going to have to live on bread and water for the next two weeks.i shall get my brother to return me my 30 bucks then i wouldnt need to use such desperate measures.I NEED TO SHOP.

and i miss sihui and gang.i need to go pool with you guys.seriously.get jocelyn out too.sorry for ps-ing u guys the last two times.

i hope yixuan HURRY back to jj.sheesh.i miss that PIG like crazy.sighs.i miss PAE.why did time fly so fast by?i wonder.

i need to sleep alrdy.training after GP common test tmr.sighs.i know we need the training.but i hate going to training with a drained brain.actually, i wouldnt mind not being in part of the tournament next year.i just wanted to try being in a team.im not playing to win.im playing to enjoy.okay, i need to sleep.

i need YOU, wherever YOU are, whoever YOU are.
ignorant rantings.

2006-08-06T06:39:00.001-07:00

yayy.things are back to normal.
i LOVE my friends, cliques, and memories.
now, i just ned to propaganda my friends to think this way too.
hahaha.
life is great since cts are over.
im SOOO looking forward to promos.
like everyone else.
goodluck to me.
LOOKING forward to trng tmr.
time to SLEEP.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOLEY HOLE!
u know u are la.LOL.

2006-08-06T02:48:00.000-07:00

FIRST, must thank LYNETTE for sending me a msg on my birthday at midnight.IM SORRY THAT I MISSED YOUR NAME!

went to celebrate LYDIA's birthday at NYDC holland village.i wana puke.the portion of food is HUGE.anw, LYDIA: HAPPY ADVANCED 17TH BIRTHDAY. i still owe u ur bday card.SORRY!((:

got to RUN.pw is on the TOP of my list now.GEE.

2006-08-04T23:28:00.000-07:00

blah.
why must things happen?
sighs.

2006-07-22T06:35:00.000-07:00

whee.here's the post i promised to thank the people who celebrated with me and wished me.see, i kept my promise!((:

JAN aka DOM was the 1st to message me, but she was kinda early. but nevertheless, thanks! u STILL owe me 5 thousand presents.WAHAH!
i shall say the rest in order (wahaha!):

*LYDIA*JIAQI*LIJING*SUEANN*JUNXIONG*WENDY*SIHUI*JASMINE*CYNTHIA*WENGKIN*WANTENG*GRACE*LYNETTE*ANGELA*ZHIXIN[wong]*JESLIN*BRICE*JOANNE[my dearest godsis]*CINDY*CLARENCE*CHEINSZE*LINGXIN*YIXUAN*SERENA*ANGELINE*JERILYN[ann lo]*DAVID*JERILYN[my og fren]*DAWN[chia]*WENJUN[my ogl]*SHAUN[my cj classmate]*RACHEL[chiang]*KATHRYN*YIYUAN*LIJING[for the secong time]*CHERLYNN*TRICIA, JANIS, JOACHIM[my cj classmates]*HONG NGIAP*NICHOLAS[my ogl]*ROWENA.

and the last being YIXIN.who was a day late.but dun worry i still LOVE u as much as i LOVE THE REST! THANKS!!!had a really great 17th birthday!((:

next credit goes to TCALS.okay, im sorry that the PARTY was a flop.BUT thanks! i reaaly appreciate the effort.and i like the shirt.i like the cake too.just too buttery.yupp.

then LYDIA, GRACE and LYNETTE.thanks for the BOD.BODYNITS shorts and bikini top!((: whee.uber PRETTY!i LOVE it.((: and to lydia and grace, thanks for spending saturday morning with me, i know how busy u guys can be.((: delifrance has never been BETTER!

then LIJING.hello best pal, thanks for the HUGE WHITE BOX that u made me carry for half a day.u should have seen how much trouble it was to carry that BOX that weighed a ton and shop for my friends' present.BUT thanks, the 17 things inside are FANTASTIC.and the effort is overwhelming!((: and nonetheless, for spending sunday lunch time with me and forgoing the mugging part!pepperlunch rocks!

thanks to my CLASSMATES, especially to WENDY, the girl who shares my bday!((: happy birthday to us!and the cake from CYNTHIA and DAVID! whee, secret recipe tiramisu cake.YUMMY! surprising wendy must have been the highlight of the day.((:

thanks to PHEBE, ANGELA and CHONGMIN, for that uber CUTE keychain.i can be easily satisfied too okay!hahaha.((:

thanks to SIAOTING, for the MMS and the cute tigger keychain.what u didnt know is that i have one alrdy.BUT i LOVE tigger, so i will TREASURE it.THANK u, my violoent friend!((:

also, my godsis was nice enough to send me an MMS too.HAHAH.i dino she knew how to send that.LOL.and she was the person who bought me my BIRKENSTOCK.whee.THANKS.

my elder brother is in bangkok now, and he promised to get me FAKE birkie's from there.WAHAH.so HAPPY.((:

short notes from my brother and his girlfriend, WEISAN.nothing form my younger brother tho.LOL.
and verbal messages include MEILING, ALVIN, MINGEE, PHEBE, and i cant rememeber who esle.SORRY.BUT THANKS LOADS PEOPLE!!

i LOVE my friends and what they got for me.((:

and HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO THE JULY 17 BABIES: ZHIXIN[wong], WENDY, SIHUI, JUNXIONG and JASMINE!!!((:

i LOVE my presents TOO!i cant expressed my unlimitless GRATITUDE!

2006-07-17T07:03:00.000-07:00

cant believe im SEVENTEEN alrdy.
anw, to add to the previous post, i missed MEILING too!

and im in a rush to go mug, so i just update abt my bdae another time.
thanks to all who msged me and celebrated with me.i will acknowledge your the next time i post okae.
SORRY!!!

2006-07-06T00:18:00.000-07:00

time to update a little.
didnt go school today.down with sorethroat and flu.or what the doctor termed as upper airway infection.i think my throat is NUMBED. arrr.heck.even cyn got an mc today.LOOKS like bio test is really a pit off.

was blog surfing just now. and went to gracee's blog.reading through her blog post made me feel a little sad. my mind whirrs back to those days in crescent.and how i would feel if i were to be in her shoes.

going out with lynette and lydia makes me reminices about those days in 2S3.really wish time could stop. and rewind back to the last day in crescent. but i wouldnt want to miss knowing those wonderful people i met in og18 and s05. sihui siaoting yixuan.

'Cause I'm waiting for tonight
Then waiting for tomorrow
And I'm somewhere in between

will it ever be?

2006-06-23T20:39:00.000-07:00

finally went swimming two days ago with lynette soh.that girl has a tan that i wld kill for.LOL.maybe we should all join lifeguard.and we wld be as chaota as she is.HEE!
anw, apparently, halfway through our swim, she remembered that there is a sale at MANGO.but she thought it was too late.nevertheless, i managed to persuade her to go.actually, she was dying to go too.haha.

so both of us chiong home to bathe and change into NICER clothes.haha.psst!lyn's skirt's diamante dropped cos she didnt read the washing directions and dumped her skirt into her washing machine which her family members set at 70 degrees celsius.well, her skirt is supposed to be washed below 40 degrees celsius.HAHAH.so kuku-nated.

anw, we met at LAO DI FANG(this place brings back GREAT memories - of how we wait for one another.LOL.) and took the train to cityhall.we walked to suntec and towards MANGO.BUT guess wad.the shop was SOOOOOO crowded and made me feel claustrophobic.now i know how kiasu we singaporeans girls can be.please, even the queue for the fitting room seems to stretch for MILES.its nuts lor.we tried browsing for stuff but i think im just glad we didnt see anything we want or even try to queue for the fitting room with the endless number of people strolling into mango.so we left with no purchase.i guess that was our greatest sacrifice of the day.LOL.

ate dumplings and went to candy empire.and then we walked to marina square.i think that place is my second home.LOL.i LOVE shopping there.like lyn said, marina square is now her best friend.HAHA.anyway, lyn was eyeing the venezia icecream like it was heaven.haha.and we realised that there is a MANGO IN MARINA SQUARE too!!!imagine our delight when we realised they've got sooooooooo many clothes with much lesser people.and the queue for the fitting room is NOT long.whee!at least we bought something that day!wahah.

on our way home, we were on 195, and lyn decided that we shld take pictures to commerate our RARE days out together.hahah.and well, she whipped out her digicam and we sarted taking photos.i bet the people sitting behind us must be thinking we are nuts.and the guy in front of us must be hearing loads of clicking shutters.HAHA.

home-sweet-home.something more embarrassing happened in mango but i think we shld keep it between us!HAHAHAH.

met lyn to mug in macs the next day.and that lazy pig's alarm clock stopped cos the battery died.so i walked to macs twice.haha.and i got a breakfast treat.HEHE.

training is GREAT.i missed zillions of training but anyway, i sort of caught up, cos coach thinks that the rest of the girls forgot wad they learnt in the past two weeks.haha.i know im not fantastic and im too lazy to run.but i shall try to improve myself.match with the guys was the turning point.it opened up my eyes to things that i dun really realised of myself.

training ended around 7 plus, so they went for dinner at the banquet at jp and i tagged alone for fun.cos i've got dinner at home.wahaha.on the bus there, qianshan, sharon, phebe, silvia and i were scolded on the bus cos we made too much noise.its SOOO EMBARRASSING!the woman just scolded us across half the bus la!tsk her.anyway, qianshan and sharon laugh like crazy.hahah.the woman DENG-ED us.wadever lor.hurr.

on the train home, cynthia(teo) was relating about her primary school incidents.DAMN FUNNY!!!reached home at 10.30.sighs..

that's all for now i guess.i need to CUT my hair.okae that was RANDOM.nvm.

`iknowwhoumeantandiknowwhattodo.sorry.

2006-06-17T10:23:00.000-07:00

forgot to update about the past few days.

wednesday: class bbq at east coast pit 33.plenty of food dished around.they cooked so much that we had to clear it as a method of forfeit.and guess wad, i was the unfortunate victim.LOL.
we, meaning phebe, cyn and me, coped the guys' bike to cycle to the jetty.watched fireworks.phebe and me thought we lost cyn along the way.but all the while she was behind us and gave us a bloody shock.LOL.played a few rounds of snap, heart attack and stress and screamed my throat out.watching them scream was way more fun.i laughed like mad.HAHAH!
went home arnd 11.30pm and took 16 on my own.with jiaqi to accompany me on the phone.but she left shortly to talk to mel.so nevermind.LOL.reached home at 12.30am.oops.hhahaha.

thursday: sushi buffet with tCALs.without cyn and mel.one no money, one got match.IF im NOT wrong.we stuffed ourselves crazy.and stacked up two stackes of plates which i guess should total up to 40.well, i malu-ed myself.apparently i dino sakae turned high-tech and started using electronic ordering.the one at tiong doesnt have this system wad.at least, i thought so la.LOL.
met up with cyn, took tCALs neos.and added a FAKE melissa into the neos.haha!she looks retarded.LOL.cyn and jer left.me jes and jq took a bus to suntec to look at the vending machines there.HAHA.this is how bored we can get.sadly, din get to go candy empire.BOO!
cabbed to GWC.watched cars with ryan.while jiaqi and jes went back to town to catch silent hill.in which jiaqi scares herslf silly and couldnt sleep after that.WAHAHA.

friday: pw at jec macs.we ended up slacing and wasting our time again.TYPICAL.
went gym-ing with jiaqi.i BURNT calories!LOL.had a short studying session at my house.ordered macs.well, we put back the calories we lost.LOL.went GWC to run errand and back to tiong for jiaqi to eat dinner.then she went home.and i STROLLED home.

saturday: slack day.did a few maths qns and rotted at home.dinner at godma hse and then its back to my home where i pasted a few stickers for my brother on his gundam model.its kinda stressful.blah.then i haf been online ever since.guess i should go sleep soon.tmr, i mean today, there's outing in sentosa with ryan.LOL.cant believe im spending my sunday out with him after spending 6 days in tokyo getting irritated and annoyed by him.

SLEEP.here i come....-in utter bliss.

`imnotsureaboutthisanymore.

2006-06-17T08:21:00.000-07:00

RIGHT, im back.been back since half a week ago.just that i din get any acess to the net, so cldnt update.anyway, this is gona be short.DISNEYLAND and DISNEYSEA was fantastic.the weather in JAPAN was fantastic, the food was YUMMY.shopping was not so exciting cos everything is expensive.BUT i lost calories there.I THINK.
well, my godsis and family loves to walk.we spent one entire day in the flea market walking from one end to the next and along the lanes parallel and pendicular to it.my birki's are went wornt.and my converse sneakers are, well, broken into.whee.anyway, this trip to JAPAN was GREAT, in summary.LOL.
cant believe next week's the last week of holidays.shoots.anw, lijing, cynthia and jiaqi all came to one irritating and annoying conclusion.of which i will not post here.in any case, i will correct them and say wadever they are thinking is IMPOSSIBLE.Crappy.

Broken Angel
by Hanson
album: Underneath (2004)

So small and yet still so proud
At night before he dreams, he looks into the clouds
A high flyer's what I want to be
Seems they won't let me, says I'm too small
I don't feel small at all

Break my dreams, that's what they'll do
Well I'm going to run away and learn to fly like you
I'm going to go so high and swoop so low
You can't bring me down
Going be so proud

Little angel, you've got to learn to fly
Get up and earn your wings tonight
Little angel, just look in my eyes
Get up and earn your wings tonight

Push and shove, then climb aboard
This is the shuttle train to the top of the world
When you look around what do you see?
These are all high flyers
But none of these high flyers look like me

What is that supposed to mean?
What am I supposed to be?

I pull my way up through this crowd
To find your body crushed on the ground
It's so obvious
Why couldn't you see?
That you can't go high flying
Without a pair of high-flyer wings

Little one's broken lying on the ground
Trying to get up 'till his last breath out
Wings are strewn everywhere, there's blood all around
'Cause even angels die, but that light just fades
It's so sad, but he'd be so proud

Broken angel, you've got to learn to fly
Get up and earn your wings tonight
Broken angel, just look in my eyes
Get up and earn your wings tonight
Get up and earn your wings
Earn your wings tonight

2006-06-05T04:13:00.000-07:00

i just finished gp essay.which i hafta print and pass to cyn tmr to help me hand in on friday.BLAH.one more chinese compo and im done for the day.
i dun like friendster.somehow there are quite a few strangers viewing my profile.when i meant a few, its QUITE a handful.)x kinda freaky thoughh.

SQ12 terminal 2.i cant wait.

2006-06-02T23:33:00.000-07:00

BE MY ESCAPE by relient k.

I've given up on giving up slowly
I'm blending in so you won't even know me
Apart from this whole world that shares my fate
This one last bullet you mention
It's my one last shot at redemption
Cause I know to live you must give your life away

And I've been housing all this doubt
and insecurity
And I've been locked inside that house
All the while you hold the key
And I've been dying to get out
And that might be the death of me
And even though there's no way of knowing
Where to go
I promise I'm going because…

I gotta get out of here
I'm stuck inside this rut that I fell into by mistake
I gotta get out of here
And I'm begging you, I'm begging you, I'm begging you to be my escape

I've given up on doing this alone now
Guess I failed and I'm ready to be shown out
You told me the way and now I'm trying to get there
And this life sentence that I'm serving
I admit that I'm every bit deserving
But the beauty of grace is that it makes life not fair

Cause I've been housing all this doubt
and insecurity
And I've been locked inside that house
All the while you hold the key
And I've been dying to get out
And that might be the death of me
And even though there's no way of knowing
Where to go
I promise I'm going because…

I gotta get out of here
Cause I'm afraid that this complacency is something I can’t shake (yeah)
I gotta get out of here
And I'm begging you, I'm begging you, I'm begging you to be my escape

I am a hostage to my own humanity
Self-detained and forced to live in this mess I've made
And all I'm asking is for you to do what you can with me
But I can't ask you to give what you already gave.

Cause I've been housing all this doubt
and insecurity
And I've been locked inside that house
All the while you hold the key
And I've been dying to get out
That might be the death of me
And even though there's no way of knowing
Where to go
I promise I'm going because…

I gotta get out of here
I'm stuck inside this rut that I fell into by mistake
I gotta get out of here
And I'm begging you, I'm begging you, I'm begging you to be my escape

I fought you for so long
I should have let you in
Oh how we regret those things we do
And all I was trying to do was save my own skin (oh)
But so were you
So were you

im truly deeply and madly in love with this song.HAHAHA.i have been coping songs frm jiaqi.hahaahah.sadly, my com is STILL down.i think my ad shld just go get a new com.he is wasting my time la.now i cant do any of my gp portfolio and wadever not.so PISSED wif him.i think he harbours thoughts of fixing that laoya pok com.TSKTSK.

ytd went shoe-shopping wif lijing.i think i almost died.LOL.nike has limited shoes for womens' design but she insist on getting nike and NIKE only.wahh.so we walked around the same few shops looking at the SAME few shoes.LOL.and comparing the service and attitudes of the people tendign to us.well, we walked out of one of the shops cos we both felt that they had REALLY bad attitude.like slamming the shoes and the boxes around.and wads worse was the person incredulous looks when jing asked for a UK size 3.LIKE harlow.if u duno we meant UK size, then was the point of working as in a shoe shop.GOODNESS.the shop next door, was MUCH nicer.two guy tended to jing and the difference between their attitudes was AMAZING.haha.and she finally bought her shoe in the shop with the NICER ambience and BETTER service attitude.LOL.

we walked aroung town and tried to figure wad to buy.apparently jing got loads of comments about the way i shop.smack her face.she said i was slow in choosing, and this came from the mouth of the person who complained that i look thru clothes SUPER fast just like a few months ago.SOOO much comments.and nothing is NICE.BLAH.

so in the end only managed to get a sb, espirit belt and fbt shorts.hahaha.then , had to wait for jing to CUT her hair.well, the hairdresser decided to play wif her hair and straightened it for her.LOL.its AMAZING.apparently sum ppl dun like it.tsktsk.then her mum treated us to jap dinner.whee.so nice.and stuffing.i almost died.cant believed that i ate so much after 9 lor.blah.i bet i gained another kg.)x

then i met up wif jiaqi and mel and we went to look thru the midnight sales at wisma.had a lousy headache cos of the LARGE number of people squeezing around in wisma.but then its BORING.there's nth much to buy.espirit and nike din even open for the sales.only managed to get a FLESH IMP top.whee.i wanna go get the converse sneakers.SO pretty and the BODYNITS shorts in TURQOIUSE!!!!arhhhhh.no money.)x

there's pw meeting later.shoots.i haven research a SINGLE thing.sighs.

and for now, im off.

2006-05-24T06:59:00.000-07:00

for those who duno, my computer is currently DOWN and dead.so sad lor.i hafta wait till my dad gets a new computer for us.BLAHH.

anw, i finally get to go for hockey training.OMG, only until today, did i realise how MUCH i miss JJ hockey pple.especially the girls' captain, JOANNA.hahaha.at 1st, my impression of her was this REALLY cold and SARCASTIC person.but well, i just realised that she can joke with the rest of the team too.and she is QUITE funny.LOL.im eyeing her jersey number(number 17..my FAVOURITE number.whee.).LOL.so sad la, the j2s are leaving soon.CRIES.anw, i just made an exasperated comment about how confused we are by joanna (she was the one confused, so when she give commands, we got cinfused too.LOL.), and i kena SCOLDED cos she say i talk against seniors.LOL.

IM LEAVING FOR A TRIP IN JAPAN SOON.in the holidays la.oh ya, my mum is kinda pissed off by my godsis, cos apparently, my godsis keeps telling me to ask my mum to raise the sum we are paying for my brother and my trip to JAPAN.my godsis is on a tight budget and apparently its not cheap to be travelling there, free-and-easy-ily.im CAUGHT in the middle of it.wahh.HEADACHE.wads worse was that i had to deal wif this after one entire day of school and training.CRAPPY.i need to go sleep soon, after im done wif GP.

tmr there's gp TIMED CONTINUAL assessment.BLAH, this week SUCKS.2 more school days to the actual holidays.i CANT wait.BOO!!!anw, i realised im quie free for the holidays except for the MANY pw meetings my group decided on.DIE.but then im relatively free except for LOW AH BEE's birthday.got two things to do that day.her bdae, and girls' hockey team's BARBEQUE!i wonder how am i gonna rush and still be able to get home in time, without having my dad to nag at me.

wad kinda holidays will the june hols be. i mean, there's like PW to be done, and the chunk of mugging we will haf to do for common test in term 3.DIE...

anw, my dad is BACK and i guess this marks the end of this entry.LOL.i will try to update soon, LOW AH BEE.im NOT a pig.thanks ALOT.hurr.

2006-05-13T08:34:00.000-07:00

`SLOW DANCE

Have you ever watched kids
On a merry-go-round?
Or listened to the rain
Slapping on the ground?
Ever followed a butterfly's erratic flight?
Or gazed at the sun into the fading night?

You better slow down.
Don't dance so fast.
Time is short.
The music won't last.

Do you run through each day
On the fly?
When you ask How are you?
Do you hear the reply?
When the day is done
Do you lie in your bed
With the next hundred chores
Running through your head?

You'd better slow down
Don't dance so fast.
Time is short.
The music won't last.

Ever told your child,
We'll do it tomorrow?
And in your haste,
Not see his sorrow?
Ever lost touch,
Let a good friendship die
Cause you never had time
To call and say,"Hi"

You'd better slow down.
Don't dance so fast.
Time is short.
The music won't last.

When you run so fast to get somewhere
You miss half the fun of getting there.
When you worry and hurry through your day,
It is like an unopened gift....
Thrown away.

Life is not a race.
Do take it slower
Hear the music
Before the song is over.

i koped this from an emial forwarded to me by chuling.and it strucked me HOW true things it truly is.its written by a young girl who is dying of terminal disease.okae.so i din really pay attention to the details.but the poem was really touching.i guess we always take for granted that we are ETERNALLY young.how sad that is, for it is NOT the truth.maybe its time i stop and take a look at we have accomplished in our short span of living.maybe we will find out the reason why we are rushing thru life.look at the number of frens we haf simply lost thru the lack of communication.

to quote lijing frm her blog(ok, maybe i lifted the whole chunk off.:P).....

wad is it that keeps pple apart and wad is it that brings them together? why do some pple get along so well and some others just hate each other? WHY DOES THE TRUTH HURT, AND WHY DO LIES SATISFY? why do some pple switch personalities around different pple, while others are sincere? what makes a person wanna butter another, and others who speak their mind freely? WHY DO SOME PEOPLE WANNA ACCEPT THE SURFACE ANSWERS AND DISMISS THE BEYOND-THE-SURFACE ANSWERS THAT CONTAINS MORE DEPTH? why do some pple just hate others for their guts? why is it that there is no freedom of expression in certain areas, must there always be censorship? what does a person gain from bearing grudges? what is the point of bearing grudges? WHY SHLD A PERSON BE SO CALCULATIVE? what makes one so jaded? what makes one so self-absorbed? what constitutes service? why do people not realise what they haf and be thankful for them? WHY DO PEOPLE ALWAYS JUMP TO CONCLUSIONS? what makes a person good and others bad? what keeps a person in the right track and not straying off? what makes a person able to think of others before oneself? what makes a person accepting of others? why do people dislike certain pple? WHY IS THERE DISCRIMINATIONS? why is there racism? what makes one superior and another inferior? IS THERE TRUE DEMOCRACY? what constitutes true democracy? WHAT IS LIFE?

those in bold are certain things that reflects what i went thru recently.or rather, not went thru.but keeps recurring in my thoughts.things went abit out of my imagination recently.i guess these questions that i bolded just somehow reinterate those problems that is so obvious in EVERYONE's life.i believe at some point of time, everyone would go through this kinda thing; questioning about life.

no, im NOT in depression.i dun plan to die.i just happen to be curioous.why is life always evolving our these few problems?did the creator of life thinks that this is FUN? i just WONDER....

to YOU:
i hope things will be settled soon.its no longer getting of hand.i think frm this u grew abit, if not a lot.arent u glad? you wun be childish for long now.LOL. im glad u still talked to me.sumhow its kinda reassuring to know that after this conflict, i will still haf u as my friend.i HOPE u think so too.U BETTER..muahaha.anw, i dun think matters will resolved this easily.so lets take one step at a time..take care!((:

cheers.school is fantastic.at least, im starting to talk to the guys now.obviously guys in jj are incomparable to in cj.LOL.in terms of looks and how well we click.somehow.i cant click wif ppl in school other than my clique.but then there is still .but then, my clique lives in our own world.just like wk said, we dun hang out wif the rest of the class.which in other words, we are DAO.LOL.i cant be bothered to go argue wif him.now his favorite hobby is to irritate cynthia and me.like HOW FUN THAT IS!especially when we are online and when im watching FULL METAL ALCHEMIST.anw, that anime ROCKS.LOL.

school is DEFINITELY tiring.OH YA!i just bought my BIRKENSTOCK's today.whee.its ORANGE.bet wendy will fall for the colour.haha.its PRETTAAAAYYYEEEE!and my stick.purple GRAY's GX2000.whee.now, im saving like mad.to go on a midyr shooping spree wif jeslin and wanting.HEH.i need BAG.blah.im sick of my brother's ORBEET bag.time to go shopping...

`itsimpossiblenow.justgetoffmyback.i dun want to.GET IT?

2006-04-22T03:37:00.000-07:00

i wana hold u till i die
till we both break down and cry
i wana hold u till the fear in me sudsides

sumtimes, i truly wonder, whether it was really a coincidence or sumthing else entirely.there are truly many ways to avoid a person.i really wonder whether there is a motive for u to do that.i duno u animore and i hafta say that u changed.u aways asked me to tell u wad mistakes u made, and when i truly wana tell u, there are so many obstacles in my way.i wonder how all this would end up to be.i miss those old days.when we chatted like mad cows on the phone till all hours, and laughe our heads off.i truly wished that time stopped before it reached august last year. i truly wished all those things between us never existed. but my wishes are all but REALITY..

school's been fine for all those who were asking me.rachel, i missed u.and ur singing, unfortunately.hahaha.ur doncha REALLY cracks me up. but things got me wondering.did i make the right choice of going back?im not regreting.i hafta say i much happier back there cos i got my whole group of friends.sometimes, certain things in life strikes me and make me realise that i expect alot. am i expecting too much from YOU?i only wish to make things better but i haf given up trying to resolve it.because u dun reciprocate the want to resolve anything.i can only WISH.

i miss crescent life.i miss yixuan cracking jokes wif me during class time.i miss going to sch wif lydee, be it cgs or cj.i miss those carefree days of mine where the only problem is whether i studied enuff for tests.most of all i miss the days wif YOU.

i duno if u wld even read this post.all i can hope for is that u have been consistently visiting my blog.and that u wld read this and realise that it is YOU who im referring to.u have ur mistakes and i haf mine.maybe in time to come, we will realise that such mistakes are seriously just puny obstacles that we hafta clear to bring our friendship up onto another level.u may think this is corny, but i truly wish that things take a turn for the better. school's been too hectic for me to even consider writing a letter to u.and i doubt u haf the time to reply it.maybe u mite haf an urging to visit my blog.we never noe.maybe i WILL write to you soon..

im not that simple.i have never been.

2006-03-17T05:36:00.000-08:00

okie.i realised its time to update.but this entry has got to be SHORT.too bad.im kinda busy.i just remembered that i haven replied cyn's letter.die.and im currently involved in a class convo which iam NOT participating in.i haf nth to say.dun blame me.the holidays haf been rather FUN.((:

monday: badminton wif the usual ppl--lyn, grace, lydia, and a NEW recruit, CHERLYNN.hahaha.then movie at my hse.err.we watched a RATHER interesting and disgusting show.lydia and cherlynn almost laugh their heads off.that movie is entirely sadistic humour lor.tsktsk.

today: went for my 1st hockey trng.i truly belive that the coach's assistant is an ASS.me and lydee cldnt take it, so we left trng early.i was convinced that guy was the coach until ange corrected my thinking.now im comtemplating joining hockey again, provided if the coach is NICER.we watched shaggy dog at gwc after a 1hr10mins bus ride.LOL.and we saw HER BROTHER.omg la.its super jinxed.hahaha.lydia noes why.LOL.

i haf a bad feeling that im cuming down wif either the flu or sth.DIE.nvm.i loved that trip to marina sq ARCADE!!!!whee.house of the dead 2 and 4 is FREAKY!nv am i gona try that.i was like jumping away frm the screen.wahahaha.then there was time crisis.wahahaha.SOOO fun.((: then i pooled wif jiaqi and melly.conclusion: jiaqi cant HIT and when melly claims that she isnt good at anything, DUN believe her.she is qte good at pool.hahah.

lyn got our neoprints on her blog.i cant believe my orbeet face is like THERE.haha.and she claims that im a LOUSY camerawoman even tho i nv told her im good.HAHAH.

alrite-y.tired-

`whatwouldustandtobnefitfromitall?

2006-03-04T20:33:00.000-08:00

im sitting SUPER uncomfortably in a miniskirt in my godsis's house trying to type with her laptop.poof.ryan is like pestering me on HOW TO DRAW A GOAT.dots.my drawing sucks.big time.haha.

okae.posting results are out.im going cjc and not gonna waste my time trying to appeal AGAIN into sajc.im not gonna give them ONE MORE CHANCE to reject me.bahh.rritating.this is the third time they rejected me le a.GRR.nvm.i got lydee in cj and i can finally go skl wif her everyday and tell her that her hair is like designer hay and her telling me i got ninety degree ponytail.LOL.i miss those days when we walk to crescent from redhill and telling each other crappy stuff.hahaha.and GOSSIPING away.HAHAHHAHA.

im trying to find THAT nike bag but i think its OUT OF STOCK alrdy.arghh.so sad.its so pretty but its qte commonly seen le.bad deal.then the other nike bag so blue, and cj uniform ALSO blue.so mayb better not get that one.poof.i mite turn BLUE one day.LOL.ryan wanna play neopets now.poof.i wonder how long since i have played it.hahahha.okie.guess i gtg before my ears drop off frm his nagging.hahahaha.

2006-02-23T04:37:00.000-08:00

WARNING:im in a PISSY mood.so if u dun wanna SPOIL ur nice day, DUN bother reading.

okae.fine.SCEW that EVIL monkey and my pissing-me-off-bigtime brother.like wth?!!

okae.i shall calm down.POOF.

been out loads of time this past two weeks.and i realised i haf been going to the same shops over and over again...maybe its cos i was always with the same few group of pple.and we always end up in town without an aim of where to go.so i always end up in the addidas shop at heeren, ink at cine, that gift shop in taka, nike at taka, and puma at taka.and SO i end up looking at the same things OVER AND OVER AGAIN.and obviously i grew to take a liking in the things i saw.which means i hafta like haf a FUNDRAISING so that i cant afford them la.ARGH.and now that i hafta buy a new fone.POS.i think im just not fated to get any of those things i wan.maybe they are just fated to remain as items of my FANTASY.

`the PURPLE addidas jacket.
`the WHITE puma jacket.
`the BROWNweave bag.
`the me-to-you BEAR.
`the sony ericsson K750i.or maybe just my old fone.

HOW long wld it take for me to haf all that?!-faints.

in any case.my brother is like so shocked just cos SIMON COWELL is in a SUPER good mood and he seems to be handing out praises for idol-wannabes on a SILVER platter.wadever.

i think this is a SUPER whiny post.wahh.i shld go school tmr.then i wun start thinking about my laopok fone.and then i wun start whining on my blog.okae fine.i shld stop my whining.argh.wadever.

2006-02-22T02:25:00.000-08:00

im gona kill that evil monkey who took my fone.WTH.

im in absolutely NO mood to blog today.
BAHH.

2006-02-20T06:12:00.000-08:00

damn.im plain lazy.
haven been blogging for a LONG time.dun feel like going to skl.
afterall i mite be going other skl le so i really cant be bothered to send 45 mins every morning to travel to skl and then spend one LONG day and travel back agn.die.im cultivalting a habit of falling asleep on the train everytime i go home after skl.and now i slping on the train in the morning.DOINKS.this is a BAD habit.and worse of all, i cant sleep at nite.my biological clock is abit screwed now.LIKE WTH.hmm i just decided to go skl tmr.afterall there's nothing to do at home.maybe i wun go bio prac.C la.muahaha.bored.okie.time to recall abt my life AGN.LOL.

[10feb]o's results released.okie.everyone got theirs way before i did.COS MJ took his OWN sweet time to give out our results.

okie.think i will update another time.my dad is NAGGING at me to go sleep.and its like only 10.30pm.doinks.

to you:i dun expect u to buy it.u arent obliged to, u noe.i dun wanna owe u that much.u dun exactly print money.so pls.dun buy it okie.thanks for the thot.((:

2006-01-20T08:20:00.000-08:00

okae.im currently half dead and i shall just type a short entry to applease all the pple tagging at my board.POOF.

hockey training just ended.not just tho, actually hrs ago.went out wif a few og pple for dinner and pool.in short, im hooked on pool and hockey.LALA.

okae, a recap of the past three weeks.orientation was FUN.maybe not the 1st two days cos that was ADMIN days.it sucks.poof.camp was GREAT!OG 18 ROCKS!!!even tho, we were ABIT dirty and all.it seems to me that the orientation camp was the best camp that i haf been to since OBS.guides camp had been more tiring and strict but there wasnt much restriction during ORIENTATION CAMP 2006.sat had bowling wif jing, lee bladders and alvin.cant believe the rumours that FLEW after that day.DUHH.met hongern's church frens.who seems NICE unlike HIM.HEEE.

week 2:mass lecture.almost fell aslp during bio.fell aslp during maths.HAHA.its SHOCKING.LOL.but then i wasnt exactly adjusted to skl time.hockey trials on friday made me miss the trip back to crescent.SORRY to all who waited for me.especially lyn and grace.hee.and jerilyn who anticipated me back at crescent.HAHA.that lame-assed jerilyn is SOOO retarded.she msged me 'NEHNEH'.HAHAHA.went gym wif lyn till 10.40 and we sat in the gym, talking for an hr.LOL.then she left.i made many NEW revelations.things i nv knew abt lyn.HEE.thanks pal!

week 3:monday started tutorials.went to meet jerilyn, jiaqi and melly after skl.those poots made me WAIT 20 mins even after i RUSHED out of skl for them and abandoned my og ppl.anw, my class pple are rather nice and the guys are CORNY!LOL.i either stayed DAMN late in school everyday or GO OUT.im gona die of exhaustion after 2 months la.POOF.wed went queensway wif KAKE and gym.can die.anw, jj's pc SUCKS big time.they make crescent's mass run look like nothing.BUT i haven been thru the worst yet.ROAD RUN.OMG.that is pyschotic.poof.LONGER than cross country.die...

today, jiaqi CRASHED.she attanded lectures wif me and tutorials wif cherlynn as one of her absent classmate.LIKE wth.HAHA.she even attanded hockey trn and u shld see her wif the ball.even tho, she was GREAT.but she really put in the effort to RUN after the ball and get into the middle of the commotion and HIT the ball.whoppee.she helped me score goal.woahhh!!!haha.its been a DAMN FUN match.i ran like SIAO.haha.conclusion, life isnt the same without the TCALS.heyy, i MISSED u guys LOADS.lets go out one day!!!and play pool.HAHA.

pool with og pple.ziwei is DAMN DAMN PRO la.wahlau.but at least he qte HUMBLE.so not that bad.haha.junxiong is GREAT too lor.cant believe it.but then ziwei is my sifu.haha.he taught me how to play pool and now im HOOKED.WAHAHAHA.sihui is WOAHH too.but then i had to leave earlier.POOF.nvm lah.i got to play for an hr.and go home LATE.har.gd thing, mummy was aslp.HEE.

anyway.tmr got sentosa outing for family 4.OMG.i think i will really die of exhaustion soon.i shall go offline and go sleep after this.meeting jingo to watch ny dance and shopping b4 that.BUGIS is a GREAT place to shop.especially BUGIS STREET!!!
sunday gona watch hockey MATCH wif jiaqi and support melly.POOF.im so gona DIE...

`when will the time ever be right?

2005-12-30T09:15:00.000-08:00

Sorry for that super-de-duper long entry about malaysia trip.apparently we had to commerate that trip.haha.it was EXTREMELY FUN and ENTERTAINING.hee.

hmm.its been TWO long and crazy week.many outings with primary skl pple.and being very BROKE.chatting on the phone till wee hours of the early morning.LOL.taking loads of gay pics of the LEE BLADDERS.wahaha.and also, CHRISTMAS!

gathering at mrs goh's hse:
in short, her kids are CUTE.and mr david ng has been nicknamed UNCLE david.LOL.and LOTSA unfinished food.three rounds of BLUFF.and bridge.haha.

outing wif the lee bladders, lijing, and audrey(short summary):
the guys paid for our tickets cos we REFUSED to return them money and lijing paid for dinner for them.wahaha.audrey went home before dinner for her tofu meal.we watched chicken little which was, in my opinion, NOT funny.and the guys played pool which proved that hong ngiap has a poor sense of aiming.HARHAR.while liing and audrey attempted A game, they shooed the guys away.LOL.OHH!took neos.

outing wif cynthia, jerilyn, jeslin and jiaqi:
watched chronicles of narnia with jiaqi in the early afternoon and guess wad both of us were LATE.LOL.but she was still later than me.HARHAR.then we RUSHED to town, caught in a jam and end up still being the earliest to meet the rest of the ppl for xmas gift exchange.anw, thanks u guys for the WONDERFUL presents received.ESPECIALLY jiaqi's, NOT.LOL.jerilyn CAME LATE, then jeslin, LATER and cynthia, THE LATEST.wahaha.they all win alrdy.in the end, i had to rush off and they remained in town.but still we were a bunch of crazy and extremely NOISY ppl in wheelock place's burger king.

outing wif lijing, lee bladders, alvin, weige and wangwan:
bowling at marina bay has nv been worse for me.LOL.i hate that stupid bowling alley.the ball is extremely oily and the ground too.irritating.but still, i had fun.LOL.hong ern came LATE.hong ngiap came wif tennis racket and acting half dead.HARHAR.eugene lee was SUPPOSED to cum but disappeared enroute.pool after that.they guys were so broke they had to pool their money to pay for the game.haha.wangwan was super enthu to learn and weige too.LOL.lijing started taking pics of them and videos too.eventually, mid-game, wangwan went off.and after that, we drifted to cityhall for FOOD.and alvin went home.apparently the lee bladders were so broke that they DIDNT eat.shocking.haha.and lijing kindly gaf them her packet of fries.and her 1/3 of her burger.i offered them my fries but they rejected.
too bad.haha.then hongern left and weige bought sum stuff and left too.so me, lijing and hn went to suntec macs, so that hn can buy food wif EZ-LINK.LOL.then we rotted there till 9 and went home.

buying sportshoes wif jing:
i dragged her all over queensway while she was recovering frm such joint problem.hehehe.then we went peninsula hotel there.hahawent up and down abt 3-4 times.muahaha.and i guessed she ALMOST died.-evil grins.finally bought sth and we went to the library.WALKED there.haha.along the way, we picked up MANY saga seeds.hhaha.my new hobby.pick up saga seeds.LOL.so pretty!then, rotted at lib and went bugis to get sum stuff and home sweet home.

chatting wif lijing and hn on the phone:
we conferenced and chatted till 4.30am.well.i fell aslp at 4am while they continued till hn's phone batt died.the convo included us teaching hn pick up lines.LOL.and stuff abt next yr's subject combi.and made plans to meet him the next morning to pass him bio stuff, so that he can read up on it and haf a BASIC knowledge abt bio.DOINKS.haha.now my book is in his hands.hopefully, it doesnt START disintegrating.erps.

outing wif lijing and cindy:
okae, in short, we ate, took neos, and roamed in town .utterly bored.haha.

my holidays was PACKED!to an extent.im so sad now.im SO BROKE that my godsis decide to be nice and give me $3.90 for helping her buy groceries today.lydia and grace went along.we roamed in ps and eventually went home.HAHA.so i haf only $3.90 and maybe a few cents in my cashcard.wahaha.the holidays are ending.poofy.NVM.it means i will get allowance soon.yippee.haha.
actually this entry is LONG too.haha.

`willyouevergetthere?

2005-12-22T04:50:00.000-08:00

alrite.
its really been a long time since i blogged.so much has happened since then.

firstly.malaysia trip with jiaqi and jerilyn:

okae.that trip was utter madness.jerilyn's fav two phrases:
'u will be the death of me.' and 'zhixin is getting cranky.'

4th dec Sunday(8pm):
i called jiaqi to find out wad time her dad is cuming over to fetch me.BUT wad i din figure i wld find out is that we are actually staying in KL till saturday instead of FRIDAY!!!so had to pack an extra set of clothes.like wth.jiaqi the blur queen strikes again.well we thot that this trip wld be like the last one we took wif lydia.but apparently not.HAHA.

5th dec Monday(3am):
jerilyn finally msged me to say that they are cuming to wait at my hse the back gate.i woke my mum up just to pei wo go downstairs but who noes my dad woke in during the commotion too.i bid my mum farewell and squeeshed into the backseat of jiaqi's dad's car wif jiaqi and jerilyn.imagine how small the backseat is and imagine trying to tahan the ride that will last HOURS.i almost died.i expected the other two to be dead tired but who noes...i practically stepped into sum mad world.

the two of them tortured me wif jiaqi's HIGH-pitched singing and jerilyn's still-can-make-it voice.even when we entered malaysia, they just kept singing non-stop.and JERILYN ANN LO RAPPED the slide along side song.hahaah.jiaqi thinks that its absolutely hilarious!but i think the ppl who suffered the most was still jiaqi's parents.haha.we made ONE pit stop and ate nasi lemak.there was CHILLI!so i can only eat a LITTLE.we piled back into the car at arnd 6 going to 7 and they finally decided to STOP their horrendous singing.and we fell aslp.OH YAR!jiaqi brought a pillow that has seen better days.it has sooo many holes that even jiaqi, herself, gave up counting them.and jerilyn took up so much space in the backseat that me and jiaqi were sharing half of it and obviously i lost out.HAH.i had to push her like for duno how many times so i wun have my face squashed against the car door.BLEA.but at least jiaqi was a better person for the middle-seat than jerilyn.haha.we stopped in ipoh at 10 plus to eat breakfast at a dim-sum restuarant.her parents are fond of ordering a lot of dishes.apparently PRAWN dishes.
poor jerilyn decided not to waste food and tried to finish more than she can.haha.too bad, me and jiaqi are used to eating a little bit.HAHA.

next stop was CAVES in ipoh.her parents wanted to pray at the temples in the caves so they asked us to go climb CAVES!!!the stairs are like ALMOST pendicular to the ground.i was so freaking scared that i wld slip and fall cos the floor SOOOO wet.and jiaqi practically ran up the stairs, while jerilyn and i struggle to reach the top.LOL.utter madness.getting back to ground floor was the worst!!! its FREAKY!still, its a feat accomplished. we had a chance to feed turtles too.holding spinach in our hand, we started aiming AIMLESSLY into the turtle enclosure.the turtles were so big!

finally we headed towards genting.and we started singing at the top of our voices.it was terribly noisy.
finally we reached the foot of the mountain and jerilyn, who's got motion sickness, decided to calm down and slp.
but too bad the car was making horrible turns and the three of us started flying arnd the backseat.literally.well try sitting in the wrong side of the car, i got flattened by jerilyn and jiaqi when the car turns left.i almost died there too.i think i almost died in ALOT of places.haha.so jerilyn din get motion sickness, neither did jiaqi because we started laughing like nobody's business.when we reached the top, genting was shrouded in a blanket of fog.we cldnt see a single thing.then when we were abt to check in, jiaqi and jerilyn had to abandon me to take care of the bags while they went to visit the toilet.CRAPPY.apparently jiaqi took her own sweet time, so me and jerilyn sat like some squatters-settlement in the hotel lobby.

first world rooms are nice cos it doesnt haf CLOSETS.LOL.it has to do wif sum ghost story ms chia told us two years back.cant believe we can still rmb and get so freaked by it.haha.we are definitely cowards.haha.we rotted in the hotel room till dinner time and we dragged our way to the sushi place there.jiaqi had indigestion from sitting in the car for too long.LOL.then after that, jiaqi went back to hotel room while jerilyn and i went shopping.jerilyn looked like she was half-dead and she kept violating me!!!haha.
then in the end, we called jiaqi to go drink hot cocoa at coffee bean.whoopee.it was so windy, i thot i was flying.haha.then we returned to the hotel room sounding all cranky and laughing our heads off.finally fell aslp at 11 plus with jiaqi snatching the blanket away from me and me pulling it back while jerilyn slept well.the only bad thing was that jiaqi occupied half of the bed and i was rolling off the sides.poot.

6th dec Tuesday:
we woke up late and went to eat at sum pooty restuarant, who's porridge is SOUR!like wad the.after breakfast, we went to get tickets for the theme park.haha.we bought jiaqi's tickets as the child tickets and saved 18 ringgits!haha.can u believe it?!they didnt even question her age.LOL.i guess she did look like a kid.haha.we spent a whole day taking roller coaster rides.look at the following:

`mine train (twice, the 1st time, jiaqi kept laughing and saying 'ouch my elbow, my elbow')
`flying dragon (pronounced as ly-ing la-gon.haha.all three of us laughed our heads off cos jiaqi was talking abt FRIENDS and jerilyn kept going 'WHAT?' like a broken record)
`cyclops (which we queued and talked abt prelims and o's papers.LOL.)
`cockscrew (which jerilyn claimed was lame at the end of the ride.)
`flume ride (which was the only ride which we three all screamed cos there was too much water and we all got wet.)
`flying coaster (which we paid 10 ringgits each to lie in a thing that looks like our coffins and the ride wasnt even scary!except at the top.and jiaqi lost her clip.haha.)
`the indoor roller coaster (twice.which sees jiaqi flying across her seat towards the lady beside her in the second time.it was DAMN fast.)
`finally, it was the spinning thing, which made all three of us walk like drunkards and gave me a headache.haha.

we saw loads of singapore school's band members cos a competition was going on.haha.lunch was crap.we had brunch, actually, and loads of junk food.then jiaqi did her annual thing, she paid 3 ringgits to ride the donkey and jerilyn took a video.i took the video last year.wahaha.typical.LOL.jiaqi wanted her ferris wheel at nite, but after dinner, the ferris wheel closed.so we took the last ride in the indoor roller coaster and went to the arcade for games like daytona and ghost squad.went to starbucks for a drink.we went back to our room super early to pack our stuff, thinking that we wld be leaving the next day for KL.but we thot wrong again.HAHAH.jerilyn and jiaqi tried to call cyn using the pay phone near the lift lobby on our level.guess wad?i heard them running back to the room abt 5 mins later laughing like hyenas and commenting abt how they hafta tell zhixin abt it.when they reached, they finally said, that the pay phone ate up all their coins except one 10 cents.LOL.jiaqi was feeding the machine coins so fast.haha.i shld haf went wif them, damn, i had to miss the funniest thing that happened.LOL.we slept early so we will be able to wake up for our breakfast buffet at the restuarant.so POSH!haha.

7th dec Wednesday:
we woke up early and complained abt jiaqi'a slping position AGAIN.so we packed our stuff properly and went to eat breakfast at the POSH restuarant.her dad commented that our room soo neat.LOL.and we didnt even sense anything amiss.until, her dad told us to go back to the hotel and go do wadever we wan.so jiaqi asked him wad time we were leaving and guess wad?he says the next day arnd 11am!wahaha.we started laughing like crazy in the restuarant.absolutely unglam and ppl were staring.i bet her dad thinks we are mad.all the way back, we laughed non-stop.LOL.we were even dressed so shabbily in our berms,expecting a hot,scorching day in KL.

who noes that two pig fell aslp not long after we got back to the hotel.and they din wake up until 2 hrs later.we dino wad to do and jiaqi finally called her dad to bring us arnd.so we wanted to watch movie there.but guess wad?the only movie worth watching at the time we wanted was HARRY POTTER.like wth.so in the end, we settled for HAUNTED ADVENTURE!i paid 18 ringgits to give myself the scare of my lifetime.erps.jerilyn said i screamed.ALOT.duhh.like who wun?!quoted from jiaqi, "whole lot hurry move it!whole lot!WHOLE LOT!".and jerilyn sticked out her light stick like she was fencing.HAHAAH!then jiaqi said to jerilyn, 'u walk first since u are from ncc.hurry!'then there were stairs and jerilyn fell and we sat onto the steps.LOL.then we half squat half walked.crazy har?haha.i kept screaming.this was like the first time in my whole life i actually got so freaked.haunted adventure was worth it!to everyone who's going to Genting.you MUST, i repeat,MUST try haunted adventure.everyone was damn freaked, even strangers pulled our arms.we came out sweating in a cold country.it was THAT scary.dinner and all.we went to our usual haunt, COFFEE BEAN.it was natural that we received unwanted attention because in such a COLD place, we drank COLD drinks.ICE-cold.wahaha.on our way back, some truck stopped beside us and the driver uttered total gibberish we din understand AT ALL.but he directed something at me.the young man called me Girl, laffed and drove off.this sparked the start of our laffing marathon because jq and jerilyn started bursting out into loud guffaws.so retarded.jq's leg turned to jelly as she wobbled up the stairs.the way back to the hotel was even worse.seeing the sign pointing to GYMNASIUM, she transformed into a hyeena almost immediately.jerilyn and i were left dumbfounded, unaware of the joke.it turned out she was mocking POOR jerilyn about her childhood and past CCAS, just b/c she used to be in GYMNASTICS.they laffed their heads off, but i was coughing as though i had tuberculosis.as usual, we were THAT noisy along the hotel corridor that we had to RUN into our room, afraid of being caught red-handed by disturbed guests.Ironically, we were disturbed by a bunch of drunkards downstairs.what do you expect from the third floor.haha.finally, we had a "peaceful" sleep once again as jiaqi and i squashed pitiful jerilyn.worse still, we robbed her of her blankets.HAHA.

8th dec Thursday:
as usual,we woke up and i found myself stripped of the blanket again.the floor became my closest partner when i woke up.DUH.then we ate breakfast.DUH.went back to the hotel, packed our stuff and left genting, which gave us many fun-filled memories.i was the only one awake on the car ride down as jq and jerilyn turned into pigs.Finally, after 2370942194 years, we reached the Sunny Island, which was sun-scorched KL.unfair, the car experienced winter while we seemed to be trapped in an igloo.okay, that meant that we went to the carwash.the foam was like snow and then it rained. the water was sprayed to jerilyn's side and she screamed at the sudden change in weather.reached Swiss Garden International Hotel and checked in. Legends have long warned us of ghosts hiding in wardrobes.POOR jerilyn was forced to be a ghostbuster but she backed out last minute. jq's dad came to the rescue!!!haha.he opened it like a brave man and said, got nothin la.those were the most reassuring words i ever heard.jq on the tele and looked out for Owen playing on ESPN.after that, it was laundry time and our toilet became a bra shop.jq and jerilyn were hanging their bras to dry.it was sportsbra galore!
we headed to Times Square and along the way, there was a commotion. we RAN into the shopping mall, jerilyn's slipper fell out.LOL.i started making music by coughing non-stop.jiaqi ran like a DUCK.turned out we were late and got reprimanded by jq's dad. we practically ran like mad DUCKS to reach in time.but oops.on the way back to the hotel, jq took on a new role in life.a traffic police,because she kept warning jerilyn to stay off the roadside,in case got robbers.dinner was bought at the downstairs restaurant before we went to the FAKE 7-11.haiya.no more outing at starbucks or coffeebean.i assume ppl in KL didn't like coffee.we kept drinking justea and jolly SANDY like we wld experience withdrawal symptoms if we didn't.i went to call my mum like near the door so i cud haf reception,so happened, jq was in the toilet.DAMN FUNNY PLS.suddenly there was this loud BANG and jerilyn and i burst out laffin because we thought jq farted big time.LOL.wento eat cup noodles too then slept so we cld become FAT pigs.sleepin in KL rocks to the core because we all had sufficient sleep,space and warmth.

9th Dec Friday:
we were SUPPOSED to be on our way home but nvm.more shopping as we took the train down to KLCC.POOR jerilyn was seperated from us and she had to bear the disgusting stench of KL men.finally, we reunited like one family.LOL.i bought cheap jeans in Isetan while jerilyn bought shorts for cynthia.after that, we took a train down to SOGO.i was being energetic as usual as walkin was the only form of exercise i ever did. jq and jerilyn were being lazy bums.shoe shop=seats.that was the only thing they seeked for.we headed back to Times Square and went to the supermart.damn crazy shopping as i recall us dropping like EVERYTHING.more shoe shops=more seats.we even had last minute things to buy, especially at FOS.jq and i could have bagged the "Best Shopper Award" if we stayed there for 1 min longer. i bought a jacket and shirt and jq, slippers with the moose.haha.we tried searching for jeslin's dunks, but to no avail.sorry jeslin, it was too expensive. Dinner was tabooed from the roadside store along chinatown while we waited happily in the hotel room.Cup noodles again and drinks to curb our withdrawal symptoms=justea, jolly shandy.

10th dec Saturday:
home sweet home. we packed up and left for Singapore.continued singing in the car but POOR jerilyn suffered because she accumulated all the viruses spread by me and jiaqi the past few days. she was sick.aww.bought bubblegum along the way and it was stashed into jerilyn's pillow because we didn't want a criminal record.we heard of a story how this poor woman was forced into eating all the bubblegum she possessed.DVDS soon became forced into jerilyn's pillow too.jq's distorted holey pillow underwent operation a few days ago, thus,it too,played a part in the GREAT ESCAPE from the police.overall, it helped GREATLY as it stored ONE pathetic bubblegum.thanks.we had to open the windows to get rid of the bubblegum smell, for fear that we would end up being handcuffed.thankfully, we were safe and back home.the trip was greatly enjoyable especially in Genting. All in all, it was filled with much laughter,albeit jq's frequent illnesses, it rocked!

2005-12-12T08:08:00.000-08:00

sumtimes when things doesnt exactly goes the way u want it to, u start to curse and swear.freaks.sumtimes i would just love to shout and scream my head off.next time anything happens, just leave me in the dark, alrite? i rather be kept in the dark than noe that i wasnt supposed to noe ANYTHING.WADEVER!it friggin sucks.thank you.

i think im not exactly in the mood to blog about genting and kl now.hmm.maybe the next time round.the pictures are retarded.i look kuku.as usual.i hate taking photos.blah.

[you]i hate to be left hanging.make up ur mind.FAST.

2005-12-03T18:01:00.000-08:00

alrite.its been a LONG time since i actually blogged.all thanks to o's, my habit of blogging died.LOL.

in the past 2 weeks.LOADS of things happened.class chalet, prom, movie marathon wif lydia and co., and cycling wif jeslin and co. hee.

class chalet was absolutely noisy.sum irritating person came over to shush us.LOL.and mr tan was also sitting there.haha.bbq ended wif lots of food left, so we had supper.then we lighted candles at 1am and we sat there and talked for about an hr plusplus.there was so much hooha in the afternn.we were interupted by a snake in the drain, then there were cockroahes in jessica's room.LOL.oh ya, the game we played to find away to the chalet.walking arnd in the mud, kicking jerilyn's butt into the sea.LOL.and chasing after kavina like the entire pasir ris park belongs to us.plus, i saw my brother's grp of friends cycling there.erm, they had a chalet at costa sands.hah.cls chalet is like the final ending chapter to our entire sec3 and 4 life.and mr josef is the crappiest teacher i ever had so far.and suesue and i had the time of our lives talking to each other at 12am.until jerilyn came in.LOL.just joking, jerilyn , u wun take offence rite?hah.and she forbid me to scratch my legs.eek.fell aslp at 5 in the living, squashed in two armchairs, while sum crazy ppl continued to utilised mr josef's dvd player.haha.woke up at 7 and realised that me and zhixin are the only one left in the living room slping.so we checked out on 24nov at 10 and left the chalet.

everyone went home and after that me, melly and jiaqi met up in town.melly and jiaqi took delight in watching me having my eyebbrows trimmed.LOL.we looked arnd, met up wif ah ma to pass her sumthing and left far east, went to ps, made a appointment for hair and went to buy ribbons.LOL.finally, i got home.hooray!talked on the fone wif lijing til 12 and went to sleep.

woke at 8 cos my appointment is at 11.if not for the fact that jeslin is cuming at 1.30, i wld haf booked a later time.blah.LOL.my hair was like swept one side and i looked like a crazy maniac wif nice hair but unglam clothes.HAH.went great world to run errand and went home.met up wif lijing at my hse downstairs and rotted in my hse til jeslin arrived and jiaqi was LATE.LOL.cyn came at 4 plus when we were supposed to leave at 6.15.hahaha.jerilyn came in looking like a guy and my brother's gf commented that how cum there is a guy in my hse.LOL.too bad, jerilyn.we rushed to prom in jiaqi's dad's mercedes benz and reached the hotel in time to dump our stuff in kalai's room.prom was great.but we were super-de-duper unfortunate.blah.nvm, i shant go into that.food was great, dessert sucked.and there were many pretty pretty ppl.haha.except that jerilyn was told that she looked handsome.muahahaah.we left when the dance fllor was opened to ppl.and crashed kalai's room to change and get out of prom stuff, makeup gunk and hair junk.except for cyn.celebrated zel's bdae and we left for town.

we cabbed to town and went to cine.movie was wif crazy hours so we went to newton market to eat supper instead.tookt the nite-rider to fullerton hotel.haha.to use the toilet.this shows how bored we were.LOL.then we sat there to talk until the concierge cam and chase us away.so mean.we walked to find the bus stop back to cine cause we intended to go watch emily rose.haha.imagine raffles city area wif nobody.we ended up scaring ourselves wif floating figures and crappy stories.until me melly and jeslin took the same cab and got high watching the extra charges jumping like nobody's business.then we came to the conclusion that the extra charges are at least half of the meter.hahaha.

emily rose was okae.jerilyn fell aslp on my arm and i almost fell aslp too.hahaha.oh ya, jiaqi met up wif us to watch emily rose and we left for liang court at 5.30 on the train.ate breakfast and walked back to merchant court hotel to slp at 8.hah.we found kalai and co. slping on the bed.imgaine 6 ppl squashed on the bed.LOL.melly and i took the floor and jeslin took the couch.while jerilyn and cynthia left super-de-duper early.so we left at 12 plus to go home.woohoo.wad a havoc nite.LOL.

fast forward to thursday.lydia and jiaqi and grace came over to my hse.we rented scary movie 3, ms congienality 1 and 2.muahaha.grace left early and currently she is in cameron highlands enjoying the time of her life.LOL.and we drank and ate.duhh.haha.

friday was cycling wif jeslin, cynthia, jerilyn, jiaqi, sueann and hengfong.we paid 6 bucks to cycle 3 hrs.almost died.the result of not having run mass run since mid yrs.haha.im unfit.LOL.saw lydia and co. at the bike rental there and we went to eat lunch at macs.as always.hah.in the end, we went far east to take neos.and everyone left.only me , melly and jiaqi and jeslin walked arnd town.went home at 6 plus.haha.

well.im sick of blogging.im going genting and kl wif jiaqi and jerilyn tonite.i wonder how am i going to survive.LOL.i will cum back on friday nite, and then sat, im going melacca wif my family.wahaha.im absolutely in love wif m'sia.LOL.my dad told me to tighten the seat belts when i take the roller coaster rides.LOL.oh well, i shall just go haf fun.tata.

2005-11-12T05:59:00.000-08:00

Love Makes The World Go Around -The Powerpuff Girls Lyrics

Bubbles: Open your eyes and take in
every thing that you see.
Look at all the colors, red, yellow, blue, & green.
We can take an airplane and fly
across the globe, look down upon the colors.
C'mon everyone, let's go.

Because...
Buttercup: Love
Blossom: Love
Bubbles: Love
Girls: La La Love, La La Love makes the world go 'round.
Love, love, love, la la love, la la love makes the world go
round.

Bubbles: Open your ears and listen what the world has to say.
Hear the birds & bells and you will have a brighter day.
Everyone has a special song deep inside their heart.
If you want, you could sing with us, it's the perfect place to start.

Buttercup: Love, love, love, la la love, la la
love makes the world go 'round.
Bubbles: You can't hurt me with the things that you do,
I'll pick up dandelions and I'll give them to you.
Blossom: Puppy dogs, kitty cats swimming through.
(repeat)

Buttercup: Love
Blossom: Love
Bubbles: Love
Girls: La la love, la la love makes the world go 'round.
Buttercup: Love
Bubbles: Love
Blossom: Love
Girls: La la love, la la love makes the world go 'round.

haha.i got the song on my fone from jeslin's fone.haha.so cute.o's are halfway thru.like my msn nick reads.almost there.pple, all the best!we can make it. its almost over.and jiaqi and jerilyn, we will be having fun in kl and genting.woohoo!haha.i want my esprit jeans and prom is cuming.blah.
alrite.1st its back to o's.hah.i wanna watch movies-whines.LOL.

2005-10-27T08:27:00.000-07:00

Ghost Of You And Me by BBMak

What am I supposed to do
With all these blues
Haunting me everywhere
No matter what I do

Watching the candle flicker out
In the evening glow
I can't let go
When will the night be over

I didn't mean to fall in love with you
And baby there's a name
For what you put me through
It isn't love, it's robbery
I'm sleeping with the ghost of you and me

Seen a lot of broken hearts
Go sailing by
Phantom ships lost at sea
And one of them is mine

Raising my glass
I sing a toast to the midnight sky
I wonder why
The stars don't seem to guide me

I didn't mean to fall in love with you
And baby there's a name
For what you put me through
It isn't love, it's robbery
I'm sleeping with the ghost of you and me

The ghost of you and me
When will it set me free
I hear the voices call
Following footsteps down the hall
Trying to save what's left
Of my heart and soul

Watching the candle flicker out
In the evening glow
I can't let go
When will the night be over

I didn't mean to fall in love with you
And baby there's a name
For what you put me through
It isn't love, it's robbery
I'm sleeping with the ghost of you and me(4x)

`o's in 11 days.im DEAD.

2005-10-18T08:43:00.000-07:00

-how i wish that time can be stopped midway and turn bak to how things used to be in the past.i miss those days.i never thot that i would actually regret not appreciating those days.

`imu.will u ever noe that?

jeslin is trying to share her joy wif me.i shall let her reveal it when the time is dues.THANKS worm.

i forgot im supposed to be on hiatus.LOL.

2005-10-16T08:30:00.000-07:00

i finally got my new fone.yippee.
and jeslin got her cute beng's number.
for those who understand wad im talking about, lets cheer for low bee, the timid one.
jeslin say i copy her cos now we got the same fone.LOL.
nj is huge.but not as huge as i envisioned it to be.
anw, suihang is cute.NOT.hee.sorry jing.
and kuang fusheng is absolutely NOT hot.
jeslin, i duno wad u see in him.hunky my ass.
farewell was NOT touching at all.
i only teared when suesue hugged me.
my god, im soooo gonna miss her and her crappy jokes and sitting next to her.
its so saddening.damn.
im going to watch my vampire show and be on hiatus (i hope i can dun cun online.)
jiaqi, i hate that word too.hee.

2005-10-09T06:03:00.000-07:00

for the thing that happened, im sorry that wad i said affected.
i duno wad to say.im just SORRY.

2005-10-08T08:40:00.000-07:00

-defeat or be defeated?

prelims results haf been out for two days.oh wells.as usual my results sucks.without the help of moderation, i would have ended up in pre-u.and sum words that my brother said really hurt.it made me further demoralised.apparently he had the same points that i had when it was his prelims.is that contradiction? but perhaps after having been thru it, he might me warning me of the difficulties i might haf in gg SAJC.seriously, wads wrong wif that school?jerilyn's aunt make SAJC sound as tho it has real LOW standards.but i think if u haf the determination to do well, u will actually do well.stastics are stated just so pple like jerilyn's aunt haf sumthing to talk about especially when they are not from the school.no offence, jerilyn.im sorry to haf to quote ur aunt, but really, dun u think its absurd as well?

went to the hello! store just now at noon to get my new hp.apparently hello! store has little or almost none NICE fones around.i give up trying to get a new fone.maybe im just fated with the lousy phone i haf now, which auto-off 5 times a day.and its getting worse.duhh.ahh.wadever.well, mummy refused to let me get a nice and EXPENSIVE fone.so wadever.erps.that's so childish.wadever.not really in the mood.

watch Goal!.for all soccer fans out there.i think Goal! is a really nice movie and its SOOOOOO worth $9.50.im NOT saying this sarcastically.i meant it.its REALLY NICE.jiaqi was leaning over towards kenny and mumbling things to him which made me feel abandoned in that little corner.hah.and my peppermint chocolate mysteriously DISAPPEARED.i haf a feeling i accidentally dropped it in the cinema.-screams.went church wif jiaqi and we arrived REAL late.reason? cos Goal! cut into the time for mass.and we arrived at the church right after gospel.i was wondering wads the point of going since we were so late.and the nice cab driver gave us a 30 cents discount.thank you, uncle.well, we almost died while jaywalking on the same road twice in town.i think we are real dumb.duhh.i think its times like these, when people test how long they get to stay on earth.

then after mass, jerilyn's parents brought us out for dinner.so sweet ehh.we had cereal prawn.-yummy.thru out the entire dinner, we were talking in codes.haha.it was uncomfortable.and i was practically aslp on my feet cos i slept late last nite and had to wake up early this morning.not having enuff slp sucks.jerilyn, if u are reading this, help me thank ur parents.dinner was nice.i think jerilyn looked weird in a tight tee-shirt, pinkish-purple skirt and dangling earrings with her usual hairstyle.maybe its just the way she walks.LOL.next sat hafta go NJC openhse.cos need to intro pretty jiaqi to suihang, hor, lijing?LOL.(private joke for those who dun understand.)

sighs.within this short and sweet weekend, many things happens simultaneously, pretty quickly.maybe not so sweet after all.farewell is in one week's time, i dun think im ready for it.but then, which psycho is?even tho, i entered cgs with much regrets, the thoughts of leaving crescent with 4 yrs of memories and 4 yrs worth of friendship is utterly DEPRESSING.i bet everyone else around me agrees too.but then, think abt it, there is still handphones and internet.

for jiaqi and melissa's information, i am not an INFLUENTIAL person.if the person just so happen to think in my terms, then its cos the person has a LACK of viewpoint.i dun give a damn about wad u guys labeled me as long as its reasonable.u guys says it as tho its wrong for me to be influential.WADEVER.

and jiaqi, u said that when its time to let go, we shld.thinking back about sumthing u said to me on the fone, u seem to have contradicted ur OWN point.for ur sake, we were talking about a certain relationship and u told me u cant bear to let go.lydia wants me to pass on the msg that u shld let go cos u are a catholic and its wrong.i agree too.its simply opposite of wad u just told me today.

to cynthia: ehh momok.i duno wad the hell is going on.i dun even think u will read this.maybe i will write u a letter later after my brother vacates my room.i noe that u think we left you out.and if u deny it one more time, im just not gonna believe u.i duno wad to say.maybe wadever im saying may sound harsh but im sorry.being antisocial is a personal choice, if u think that we purposely left you out, we didnt.we always tried to include you but apparently it never succeed.the only thing that i think was wad affected ur social-biliity was the fact that u had low self-esteem and u thot that wadever u said was out of point.maybe our attitude shows u that, but i doubt that we ever openly told u straight in the face wif a serious tone that wad u said was unnecessary.the only times u talked was when melissa went out wif us.as compared to melissa, are we that unworthy of u saying a little more than a few words?i think i made my point.i shall rethink about writing that letter.

as i said before, wad i convey on messenger does always reflect wad i really feel at that particular moment.jiaqi, caught this?

today has been a long day.lydia is a NICE person to msg to cos she can brighten ur day at any moment of the day.LOL.guess i will just turn of the comp now and go sleep.pokk.

`things happen in a flash.wads reality?

2005-09-18T05:22:00.000-07:00

DUMB!!!mr bean is absolutely DUMB!wahhaha.

okae.my entire family is laughing their heads off at mr bean.LOL.oh wells.i haf survived one hellish week of prelims.and there goes my dream of going to any nice jcs.definitely no more njc.sorry jingonut.i just dashed ur hopes of me getting into njc.for the second time in this entire year, i noe im doing damn badly for amaths.bleeh.

no point getting all worked up.i shall just work harder for o's, i guess.

2005-09-09T09:13:00.000-07:00

bleeh.its prelims in about 2 days time.and wad the hell am i doing online playing neopets?! OMG.
im going insane.hah.too much stress so i decided to play neopets to de-stress abit.LOL.im so hooked to that webby.haha.wad to do?the entire hols, i was playing neopets for ryan.HAHA.he is currently madly in love wif sumthing that had been so over so long ago.haha.i seriously dun feel prepared at all for prelims.in any case, if i do score badly, i haf no one else to blame but myself.i guess i shld stop blogging rite this moment and go read my bio text.actually, i dun even noe why im so enthu to study bio when i haven studied ss and amahs.LOL.ahh.forget it.im gonna mug.

`time to cram like KRAZEE..

2005-08-31T21:46:00.000-07:00

-broken.

lydia told me to re-read the obs article she gaf me.especially the 6th paragragh.

If someone hurts you, betrays you or break your heart, forgive them, for they have helped you learned about trust and the importance of being cautious to whom you give your heart to.if some one loves you, love them back unconditionally, not only because they love you, but because they are teaching you to love and opening your heart and eyes to things that you would have never seen of felt without them.

the passage told me to forgive the person, but it doesnt tell me whether i shld continue that friendship, or teach me how to rebuilt my trust in her.i duno wad to do anymore...

i want to rage, to scream but its like this big ball of thing that is stuck in my throat.freaks.

2005-08-28T03:00:00.000-07:00

OMG!! jan.thanks so much for reminding me abt that song which u used to irritate me the most.LOL.i almost died for excessive intake of that song.-screams for help.
haha.was msging lydia (or shld i call her lipari?haha.) last nite.and she just told me she is going to purchase a chopper to slaughter ms azlin for telling the whole world how lipari came about to be hoho's name!haha.funny.ms azlin said that lydia really resembled a butcher.LOL.my whole class were laughing their heads off and me and cyn almost died laughing.HAHAs.
ytd, went wif jiaqi to her church in bukit batok.she asked jerilyn to chop seats for us and jerilyn was so damn shocked to hear that i was going to attend church wif them.LOL.went all the way there cos i was super duper bored at home and both my brothers are busy.furthermore, my parents went to attend some medical seminar.so i sneaked out and went to church and eat dinner wif them.this is the only church session that i didnt pay attention cos i was partly brain-dead and jiaqi and jerilyn simply made too much noise.even nicole was shocked and jumping for joy when she saw me at the church entrance.HAHA.
after that, me, jiaqi and jerilyn went for dinner at westmall.i was damn paranoid.in case my cousin or my aunt saw me in westmall.-sheepish smile.jerilyn told jiaqi about the spongebob show she watched wif her parents.this stupid story made jiaqi laugh like a hysterical hyena.at the very sss sound, she burst out laughing.LOL.damn spastic and the people at burger king kept staring at us.HAHA.wells, the entire time during dinner, we were talking about crook and mainly about one person.haha.seriously, me and jerilyn are totally puzzled by her antics.maybe we shld just ask her.LOL.i was msging jeslin ytd and she take a superb long time to reply me.dots.she saw a cute beng who has a weird surname, just like the rest.HAHA.anw, she saw her cute beng and decided to gif up on her tou hua.oh man.so sad.haha.jerilyn wanted me to be her fling for that 2 hrs plus.wahh piang.i almost died of laughters.jerilyn is RIDICULOUS.haha.oh well, ytd is really a day where i relaxed.woohoo.
was supposed to meeting jingonut today.but that laopok poot got sum pooty projiect so she cant meet me le.doinks.now i hafta help my brother print his notes.bleeh.

read jan's blog just now which made me reminisce.doinks.rmb-ed the time, mrs han left and ms renee wu took over.oh man, i still remebered how me, lyn, sophie and maxie hated her on the spot and cldnt imagine why the rest of the class thot she was so nice.haha.but in the end, we were won over by her nice-ness.LOL.saw her the other day while i was wif jiaqi at cine.she slimed down but then cant confirm its her cos we never approach her.LOL.nevertheless, the past in 2S3 had a joy.i miss those days of heck-care attitude, of not feeling guilty even if we didnt study, of always being in our own world.it had been so fun.((:i miss ms chia.-sighs.

the past seems to be a whirlwind of enjoyment and madness.the future seems to hold much much more stress.damnit.i miss those days where things are so free and easy.bleeh.nvm.we shall look forward cos we never noe what the future have in store for us.haha.im trying to console myself.LOL.oh wells.i shall stop here.and continue my nonsensical tirade another time, when im more free.((:

`flyawaytothefurthestplains.

2005-08-23T02:40:00.000-07:00

-beams.

i wana jump for joy.im staring to becum a motivational factor to hoho and lailai.haha.thanks peeps.i wouldnt haf the corage to say it out load but perhaps one day..that one day will cum.-determined face.i LOVE you guys to the edge of the universe and back.i wonder how far is that, i hope its really far.

`to the person who im not replying to.im sorry.but i really hafta concentrate on my studies.i haf left it dangling in mid-air for too long.and i just heard my wake-up call.

Then she slipped away as insubstantial as a ghost, as if the layer of ice that encased her kept anything from spilling out. The hot sun beat down on her but she wondered if she would ever be warm again.

im currently taking a break from my stay in skl regiment.coz i was supposed to bring my ham-ham to the vet.guess i dun haf to YET.yepps.and my brother signed in to msn messenger and this really irritating person keeps cuming online, for the 6th time, i think and the pop-up keeps appearing.GRRR....

guess i shall go now since i haf got nothing to update yet.:))

"She seldom smiled and she had never laughed in ten years.."

2005-08-19T08:26:00.000-07:00

-jumps for joy.
i realised on my bdae this year that i haf loads of people who cared so much for me.now that the prelims and o's are getting nearer and nearer, i realised how much i loved my frens and how much i treasured this big group of people.

in no particular order:

`jingonut.hey pal.thnaks for being the one to send my a cyber hug after wad happened on saturday.we haf been friends for so long.i really treasure this frenship alot.we haf been thru so very much.i love you.u brought joy and much maniac laughter to my life since i met u almost 9 yrs ago.THANK YOU!

`jiaqi.and.lydia.hey peeps.thanks for all these 4 yrs where u guys brought so much madd moments into my life.i still rmb the times we went towning together and end up going home feeling high and totally KRAZEE.u guys were the limelight in the full 4 years of my life in secondary skl.i noe i nv shedded a tear b4 u guys but i think during sec4 farewell, i wldnt bear up so well.we shall see okie?takkaire always okie?u noe i love the two of your very very much.(:

`lynette.and.grace.u guys were insane everytime we went out together.especially lyn wif her loudspeaker-voice.i still rmb those times we took neoprints and looked really spastic.that was rather recently.promise me, we will do it agn okie? love ya!

`jeslin.and.cynthia.and.melissa.hey momok and kanasai and melly-wally.even tho we only got together this year.i really love the times we went town-ing and got super mad, walking up and down the whole stretch of orchard road repeatly just to get the bags we want.thanks you guys for that.it brightened up my day tremendously just to go shopping wif you guys.we are like the most pyscho-ed people found loose in orchard.after prelims, we shall haf another shopping spree for our prom nite dress okie!take care!((:

`jerilyn.and.sueann.hey fren's partner and my GID-partner.yoohoo.sueannie.u were the best partner i had, being the most pyscho one who managed to endure my craziest mood swings these past year and a half.thanks so much.i love you to bites!im sooooo gonna miss you!and jerilyn, ur hair really cracks me up.thanks for always being the concerned one.even tho, i only really noe u well arnd mid-yr, still ur action for these few months really etched itself deep in my memories and my sec 4 life.thank you!

`yiyuan.for being the peng you who understood me so well.THANK YOU.i noe i nv treated you the way u deserved to be treated.you were and still is one of my closest friend whom i can always relate to.i love you.for being the only one who would listen to me silently wif that look of understanding and allowing me to finish my speech b4 telling me ur opinions.thank you.i love you alot alot.

`jan.and.sophie.heyyee peeps.u guys were the on-and-off friends of mine.still, i wanna thank you guys for insipiring me wif words(jan) and ur results(sophia).friends till the end.forget-me-not!

`kenny.for being my sparing partner.sumtimes u really cracked me up.hah."are we friends yet?" -rmb this qn?haha.hope we still are.thanks for being able to cheer me up sumtimes.u may not noe it but yepp.u brightened up my days in many countless ways.haha.

`brice.for being my sms-partner for the past eight months.thanks for letting my msges bao like crazy.haha.kidding.still.im glad that i was of sum help those first few months.yipee.((:

`my.two.dumbass-es.of.a.brother.u guys were my rock for these past 16 yrs.for kaixiang, u were the dearest elder brother i could ever haf.thank you for all those late-nite advices u gaf me.thank YOU!and my younger brother, kaiqin.i believe u were and still is my bestest best friend.even tho i haf stuff that i kept from u so u wouldnt blabber to anyone else.i love you so much.thank you didi.take care of yourself okae!i always worry about you.((:

`my parents.for so much.thank you.i love u two always.for giving birth to me, for giving me two brothers who really cared abt me and i them.THANK YOU!!!also for letting me be who im.for giving me trust when i truly deserved it.for listening to me and explaining things to me.especially daddy.i love you.

`joanne sis.u were the best godsis i could ever ask for.thank you for spending time to haf meals wif me and talking to me.for talking sense into me when i did really dumb stuff.(when i was in p5 i think.) thank you.u gaf me my other two LOVES.ryan and zachary.even tho ryan is seriously irritating at times.i love him!thanks you.((:

`my godmama.mama.xiexie ni.i dun think u will ever read wad i wrote.i hope one day i would be given the chance to say all this b4 i miss the opportunity.thank you for doting on me and didi.u were the best!i love you alot.you contributed soo sooo much to who im today.there were so much revelations for me while i was under your care.u taught me to me sensible and responsible for my own actions.THANK YOU!!!!!

to those that i didnt include.im sorry but this getting rather emotional.but still.to all the people i noe, thank you.its only at times like this, when i find out that this is truly how i felt.this are the things i would never be able to express out openly but YES, this are all the people i cherish the most!

especially to lydia ho.u were the one who gaf me an opening to be emotional and c that everything has its side of optimism.u lighted up the path in my life after i knew u in sec 1.u gaf me soo much to be happy about.in ur own indirect ways, u gaf me hope to hold onto even the thinest thread of optimism, and taught me, again, indirectly to embrace life as it is and not dwell on the sadder moments for life is always full of better and more fruitful times.u taught not wallow in self-pity.however we drift, i noe that, in the end, we would still remain friends and i thank you for that.i thank whoever im suppose to thank for all these wonderful people who added so much flair and brought so much joy to my life.THANK YOU!!!

lydia, it was ur blog entry that got me so emotional and jan's who taught me to show that i care for those arnd me.u may not noe it, but im currently haf so much pent up stress that i needed to release.today was the day i really cracked up.THANK YOU TWO.((:you gaf me the courage to tell the rest that i love them in all the little ways in which they meant so much to me.and you two as well.

ohh well.after the emotional part, i just wanna add to jiaqi: HAPPY SWEET 16!!
u are old.just like me and hoho.haha.hope u really enjoyed ur surprises and the stroll in town.hhaha.takkaire.i shall pass u ur letter tmr.((:all the best.

im going offline soon.since i've got geog consultation wif mr josef.and since we are the earliest grp, he say he is treating us to macs breakfast.yippee.i ordered the meals just now for all that are attending that time slot.wahh.i think mr tan is gonna be super broke.he has to pay 45 bucks plusplus.haha.think im going to slp now.nite-y.

`ilovemyfriendstotheuniverseandback.thankyouguys.foralltheemotional,pschological,andmentalsupportallthesetime!loveyaloads...

The Middle - by Jimmy Eat World

Hey, don't write yourself off yet
It's only in your head you feel left out
and looked down on.
Just try your best,
Try everything you can.
And don't you worry what they tell themselves
When you're away.

It just takes some time
Little girl, you're in the middle of the ride.
Everything, everything will be just fine,
Everything, everything will be alright, alright.

Hey, you know they're all the same.
You know you're doing better on your own,
so don't buy in.
Live right now and
just be yourself.
It doesn't matter if it's good enough
For someone else.

It just takes some time
Little girl, you're in the middle of the ride.
Everything, everything will be just fine,
Everything, everything will be alright, alright.

It just takes some time
Little girl, you're in the middle of the ride.
Everything, everything will be just fine,
Everything, everything will be alright, alright.

~ ~ ~ ~ ~

Hey, don't write yourself off yet,
It's only in your head you feel left out
and looked down on.
Just do your best,
Do everything you can.
And don't you worry what their bitter hearts
Are gonna say.

It just takes some time,
Little girl, you're in the middle of the ride.
Everything, everything will be just fine,
Everything, everything will be alright,alright.

It just takes some time,
Little girl, you're in the middle of the ride.
Everything, everything will be just fine.
Everything, everything will be alright.

The World Is Black - By Good Charlotte

Turn on channel seven at a quarter to eight
You see the same damn thing it's just a different day and
No one really knows why this is happening
But it's happening
And everywhere you go it's just a different place
You get the same dark feeling
See the same sad faces
No one really cares that this is happening

We come into this world
And we all are the same
In that moment there's no one to blame

But the world is black
And hearts are cold
And there's no hope
That's what we're told
And we can't go back
It won't be the same
Forever changed
By the things we've seen, seen

Living in this place it's always been this way
There's no one doing nothing so there's nothing changed
And I can't live when this world just keeps dying
It's dying
People always tell me this is part of the plan
That God's got everybody in His hands
But I can only pray that God is listening
Is He listening?

We're living in this world
Growing colder everyday
Nothing can stay perfect now I see

But the world is black
And hearts are cold
And there's no hope
That's what we're told
And we can't go back
It won't be the same
Forever changed
By the things we've seen, seen, seen

We come into this world
And we all are the same
And in that moment there's no one to blame
But we're living in this world
Growing colder everyday
Nothing can stay perfect now I see

The world is black
And hearts are cold
There's no hope
That's what we're told
And we can't go back
(We can't go back)
It won't be the same
(It won't be the same)
Forever changed
(What will ever change)
By the things we've seen, seen, seen

Turn on channel seven at a quarter to eight
You see the same damn thing it's just a different day
And no one really knows why this is happening

2005-08-17T06:26:00.000-07:00

Ghost Of You -- By Good Charlotte.

I will wait until the end
When the pendulum will swing back
to the darker side of our hearts bleeding
I will save this empty space
next to me like its a grave
where I lay a place for us to sleep eternally together

I have been
Searching for
Traces of
What we were
A ghost of you
is all that I have left
is all that I have left of you to hold
I wake in the night to find there's no one there but me
and nothing of what we were at all

So here I am pacing around this house again
With pictures of us living on these walls
I see my breathe in the cold of the air that I breathe and I'm

wondering i'm wondering if its you that i fell if its you that i feel

haunting me forever

I have been
Searching for
Traces of
What we were
A ghost of you
is all that I have left
is all that I have left of you to hold
I wake in the night to find there's no one there but me
and nothing of what we were at all

and i'm not looking for
anything but us
anything but what we were
and i'm not asking for
any memories
I only want to know you're here

A ghost of you
is all that I have left
is all that I have left of you to hold
I wake in the night to find theres no one there but me
and nothing of what we were at all
A ghost of you
is all that I have left
is all that I have left of you to hold
I wake in the night to find theres no one there but me
and nothing left of what we were at all.

well.its been another hectic week and i got a dead blog.i seriously suspect everyone esle is madly studying for exam while im the only few pyschos that still blog on a weekday.haha.anw.i was utterly shocked by an incident on saturday.i guess im just damn freaking unlucky.but its okay.nothing bad really happened except that i came out of the incident with a few scrapes and bruises.im just gald i got my stuff back.whew.anw, there are many people who asked wad happened over the past few days.sorry but i didnt really wanna relive that freak incident.thanks for ur concern.and to those who know.thanks for everything.its just a freak incident.i guess everything is perfectly fine now.i guess i just lived through my worst saturday ever, or perhaps the worst day of my life.LOL.to quote frm jiaqi's course instructors...YIPEE.HAHA.im just glad its over.HEE..oh well.and im just friggin glad that i DUN hafta retake chinese.woohoo.it came as a shock.LOL.my chinese sucks for those who duno.yepps.im going offline to start my mugging and continue the no-lifer regiment.YIPEE.wahaha.

2005-08-06T06:58:00.000-07:00

adsition again:

LOVE IS WHEN JAN IS TALKING TO YOU!

haha.all this is added on after they request for it.LOL.im haf funny friends.HAHA.went to celebrate holeys-ke-moleys bdae today.

HAPPY BDAE LYDIA!!!

hee.u can watch NC-16 shows soon.at least legally.haha.
went fish and co. with jan, cyn, jiaqi, grace and obviously, Lydia.had SOOO much fun with these group of people. and grace was utterly late like anything.HAHA.ohh yar! jiaqi is the dumbest person i noe.haha.nvm.she very de gong-toot de, duno how she could haf done wad she did.haha.JIAQI, this shows that inuyasha is not ur shining star.LOL.
ohh wells, we ate at the glass place.it so FREAKING empty lah.my kanasai brother told me its packed to the max on weekends.when we reached there, me and jiaqi vowed to get even wif that toot.LOL.I HAD FUN! thanks loads peeps.its fun hanging out wif u guys.jan and lydia were calling each other names.LOL.just imagine jan being called DA MA.and lydia being called LIPARI the butcher in a view from the bridge.HAHA.and u can tell i had geat fun laughing my head off.LOL.i admit, i haf mad friends.i think we made so much noise in the restuarant that the people around us keep looking at us and the waitress kept glancing over to made sure that nothing happen.haha.nevertheless, it was exhilarating. oh yar!!! [JAN]i noe wad the stars mean.HAHAHA.i LOVE ******.woohoo.so OBVIOUS la pls.haha. well, while we were in fish and co., we exchanged several incidents that happened to us.haha.i didnt noe that i haf such madd and psycho friends.HAHA.too bad those conversations are meant for everyone to noe.it was DAMN FREAKING FUNNY.haha.

its so freaking hot.sumtimes, i feel like snipping my hair off.wahh...

after fish and co., we walked all the way to ps there then jiaqi say she wana go toilet again(she went before, u see.)haha.but before we could go wisma, yewyew left.so we headed for wisma la.and jiaqi was telling lydia how the mice-love-rice song gets on my nerves.haha.then cyn bought her shoes and we started strolling around and then jiaqi left for church.duhh.so we got zilch to do and ended up in far east--taking neos.and eating at gelare cafe. at least lydia and jan were eating, me and cyn were drinking.haha.okae.we haf spastic looking neos lah.too bad we din manage to add that cigarette into jan's mouth and there wasnt any cutie pic.haha.

i guess that was for today.i had a pretty hectic week.staying in school till gate-closing hours practically drains my energy.by wednesday, i was sort of dying already.then thursday and friday was a mad rush after school to get lydia's present.not to forget i had tuition on thurs nite and i think pearlene doesnt look like she slept any.she look tired and i feel mean asking her over for tuition after her industrial attachment.but then i needed help wif organic chem.so shoot me.haha.ohh and ytd was madness.school ended at 4 cos of the geog mock test and the short lecture.then me and jiaqi had to go ps and get all the stuff we need.then still hafta take bus to gwc to get the ribbons cos i dun wan a repeat of wad happened to me and grace in spotlight last year taking one whole hour to pick two matching ribbons for jiaqi's BEEG elmo.haha.finally i get to go home but i had to meet brice over at tbp at 8.30 to get my ss textbook back along wif my pressie.OHH YAR! THANKS SOOO MUCH for that present.i still think u print money.hee.so pretty la!haha.but then in the end, he forgot to bring my ss textbook instead.haha.LOL.nvm.thank goodness that such things as notes were invented.haha.and lydee complained that he din get anything for her.LOL.now i duno wads gg on wif that whole lyn thing.nvm.i think she will enlighten me on monday.hopefully.if she isnt angry wif me.bahh.yeap.continuing wif my hectic day, i saw my brother in sportslink in tbp and i finally got 1 nike shirt.LOL.the we-love-waffles one in pink.jiaqi was complaining that i haf far too many pink and green tops in my wardrobe.i mean wad can u expect me to do? the yellow one dun haf my size mah.ahaha.and i finally ate my dinner at 9 plus.late huh?[im getting stung by irritating mosquitoes and my entire leg itches.argh..]

aiyah.forget it.i think i dun wana be a victim of dengue mosquitoes so im gona reduce chances of that by going offline and going to sleep.these stupid mosquitoes are seriously VICIOUS.bah.byee.

`imblessed.

Save me by Corrinne May.

I drift, I burn, I fly
When you sing lullabies
I'm helpless, I'm yearning
I'm like the putty in your hands

I laugh, I dream, I cry
When you take me on a roller-coaster ride
You see me through and through
You see just who I am
Just take my hand and

*Save me from this place
Heaven knows I'm falling
For you my sweet embrace
Heaven knows
Heaven knows I've been waiting
For you

I had a dream that I
Was falling from the sky
At 90 miles an hour
I was bound to crash and die

But out of nowhere you
Came and rescued me
There must be some grace in
The touch of your face
I'm so happy that I've found you
I'm no longer afraid

Oh cause you
Repeat *

Before I met you
Life was slow-mo, so slow-mo
I thought I had it figured out
But you came and turned
My whole world upside down

Repeat * x2
For you
Waiting for you

2005-07-29T08:07:00.000-07:00

addition to my previous entry.

LOVE IS WHEN LYDIA IS AROUND!

haha.i bet lydia will jump for joy when she sees this statement.LOL.
haiz.so many things happen this week.however the most coincidental thing of the week happans to be how grace and lydia wun see each other when we walk to skl in the morning.like doinks.monday and tuseday, it was grace who was too early to wait for us.then it was lydia having fever in the morning and overslping the next day.then today, grace din meet us for wadever reason that dun register in my head when lydia told me about it.nvm.they simply love to do disappearing acts.bahh.

jeslin went to get contacts le.and she spent half an hour learning how to put the lenses into her eyes.PRO eh?lol.she is the best.haha.and the lens can droop out frm her lower eyelids cos she never put properly.LOL.okie.its not nice to laugh about it.HAHA.sorry jeslin.melissa happily took down a picture of jeslin fitting the contacts into her eyes.HAHA.in the end, mellissa got glared at by jeslin.someday, i think we will all die from jeslin's daggers stares.LOL.

ohh wells.i just rmbed the other day when yew told me the meaning of LMAO.wahh.my YOUNGER brother told me its actually a universal internet language.i feel so OUDATED.cant stand it.but then compare the amt of time i spand on the net and the amt my brother spend, its not surprising how cum he noes so much more than i do.and wif him hogging the com, its NOT surprising that i dun get to use the com at all.TSSK.

anw, today there was lit test and ms azlin was giving out the holiday assignment that is being graded.im shocked to say that me and yanting topped the class and drawed at 21/25.woohoo.wahh.this is still a first lor.im utterly shocked.i bet ms azlin was too.haha.she almost couldnt believe Teo zhixin is the guides one.HAHA.so its not fun to share the same name as GENIUS Wong zhixin.but then wad can i say.i took one nite to do the planning and another to write out the essay.so sue said it pays to do properly planning cos she got 20/25.i haf a smarty-pants for a partner.haha.next time im gona mimick her study schedule.maybe i will get more shocking results in time to come.HEE.

from next monday onwards, i haf decided to stay in skl wif jeslin the psycho and sueannie to study till the last bell of the day ring then we will leave skl.im gona start my no-life regimen which i guess sue is already leading.haha.sue is the most no-lifer i haf ever known.she even beats lijing.LOL.

LIJING!!!where's my harry potter and my orange halter?!

bleahh.i led an eventful week.LOL.i heard my brother arguing wif his gf agn.obviously me being the blur one, i din realise they were arguing till i put down the fone wif jiaqi and went to take the nail clippers in the toilet.then my mum was lying in the dark using this new machine thingy.so she called me over and asked me wheher my brother was really arguing.LIKE how wld i NOE?doinks.parents haf this amazing perception that we younger siblings know everything about our elder siblings.HAHAH.well.my mum said, must be weisan accusing my brother agn.for wad, i haf no idea.how do we even tell that they are quarreling?
well.my brother is capable of not making any noise when he is on the fone.he can me superbly soft and u wun even hear a single word that he mumbles.except when the other time, i was in the car next to him while he talked to her.but then last nite, it was DIFFERENT.he was like getting increasingly agitated.he was perfectly fine, chatting away wif me til halfway thru his dinner, i received her call.so sbviously being him, he stopped eating and rushed to pick up the fone.not long later, my brother started to talk louder and louder on the fone.and surrisingly he left the door to his room open and its like a free show to the whole family.but then canot hear anything that he says.sounds very muffled.LOL.in the end, before i went to bed, he was still on the fone and i din get to see him at all even til now.he cancelled tuition wif jiaqi today and din give me any reason just that he cant make it.like HOW irresponsible can my dumb brother be?i wonder wads wif the obssesion wif her.TSKK.

i duno why.all the guys i noe that are attached are lidat.so chi qing.bleahh.its either that or they put their crush before the needs of their friends.*jiaqi:hint.[u shld noe which JERK im talking about.]tskk.nvm.no point getting all worked up just cos sum JERK duno how to appreciate their friends.bahh.re-quoted, guys are dense.and that's an understatement.bleahh.

anw, jiaqi, takkaire kae.sumtimes, people get irrational and do stupid things.just dun stoop to that level and do more irrational stuff like trying to escape.i noe i said this, "the more u wana escape hell, the more tortuous it would be for you." escaping is only a short-term solution to it.y not make sit and talk rationally WITHOUT resorting to throwing things arnd? if u need help, i will be arnd.SORRY about not being able to offer my hse for ur convienances.

i think im so gona fail all the test that i took this week.i feel that i din put in enuff effort to study.okae.stop it.no point fussing over split milk.im gona work harder for the rest of the test which leads to prelims.hmm.my long-term goal.

okae.i think this is enuff.i spent abt 45 mins tyong this entry.time to stop le.

`things are no longer the same.regrets are too late.

Inside Your Heaven - Carrie Underwood

I've been down
Now I'm blessed
I felt a revelation coming around
I guess its right, it's so amazing
Everytime I see you I'm alive
You're all I've got
You lift me up
The sun and the moonlight
All my dreams are in your eyes

I wanna be inside your heaven
Take me to the place you cry from
Where the storm blows your way
I wanna be earth that holds you
Every bit of air you're breathin' in
A soothin' wind
I wanna be inside your heaven

When we touch, when we love
The stars light up
The wrong becomes undone
Naturally, my soul surrenders
The sun and the moonlight
All my dreams are in your eyes

And I wanna be inside your heaven
Take me to the place you cry from
Where the storm blows your way
And I wanna be the earth that holds you
Every bit of air you're breathing in
A soothing wind
I wanna be inside your heaven

When minutes turn to days and years
When mountains fall, I'll still be here
Holdin you until the day I die
And I wanna be inside your heaven
Take me to the place you cry from
Where the storm blows your way

I wanna be inside your heaven
Take me to the place you cry from
Where the storm blows your way
I wanna be earth that holds you
Every bit of air you're breathin' in
A soothin' wind
I wanna be inside your heaven
Oh yes I do
I wanna be inside your heaven

2005-07-23T05:50:00.000-07:00

LOVE IS WHEN
you wake up, he is already on your mind.
LOVE IS WHEN
you miss him all the time.
LOVE IS WHEN
you want to call him & see if he's alright.
LOVE IS WHEN
you're lost and he is all that you can find.
LOVE IS WHEN
you want to be the one to dry his tears.
LOVE IS WHEN
you see the truth in every one of his lies.
LOVE IS WHEN
you want to listen to all his whims and woes.
LOVE IS WHEN
you worry about him everywhere he goes.
LOVE IS WHEN
you want to protect him from harms way.
LOVE IS WHEN
you look at her and say .. "i love him"
LOVE IS WHEN
you tell the world that you love him.
LOVE IS WHEN
you have told the world but "HE" does not know.
LOVE IS WHEN
your eyes light up when you see him there.
LOVE IS WHEN
your heart-breaks when he's mad at you.
LOVE IS WHEN
you crumbled inside when he has doubts abt you.
LOVE IS WHEN
you learn to smile even when you're crying inside.
LOVE IS WHEN
your body tingles with a touch from him.
LOVE IS WHEN
you melt with a kiss from him.
LOVE IS WHEN
you hug him and everything will be fine.
LOVE IS WHEN
his happiness is what matters most to you.
LOVE IS WHEN
you are willing to do anything to make him happy.

and if he loves another ...

LOVE IS WHEN
you let him love her... and not love you true.
LOVE IS WHEN
you will still love him and still he will never know...
LOVE IS WHEN
you will swallow the pain and slowly let go...

yet...love is a funny thing...

LOVE IS WHEN
you smile when you hear its "him and him" no
more...
LOVE IS WHEN
you hear he sent her through the door..
LOVE IS WHEN
you try to "BUMP" into him again...
LOVE IS WHEN
he will say "HI" to you and there is no more pain.

LOVE IS SUDDENLY TRUE LOVE
when he says he loves you too.
LOVE IS SUDDENLY TRUE LOVE
when his life revolves around you.
LOVE IS SUDDENLY TRUE LOVE
when he says, he has always loved you but he
didn't dare to..
LOVE IS SUDDENLY TRUE LOVE
when he says, he always loved you but thought
you didn't care..
LOVE IS SUDDENLY TRUE LOVE
when now it's all coming true.
LOVE IS SUDDENLY TRUE LOVE
when you love him and he loves you...!
LOVE IS SUDDENLY TRUE LOVE
when now your life is nearly complete.
LOVE IS SUDDENLY TRUE LOVE
when everyday its him you meet.
LOVE IS SUDDENLY TRUE LOVE
when your family and friends accept him too.
LOVE IS SUDDENLY TRUE LOVE
when you can have time for them and him and you.
LOVE is a combination of many splendor
things...and a really complex feeling.

nice.i coped this frm jan's blog.LOL.but obviously, i edited the "her" to "him".hehe.my mum was telling me how fortunate my cousin is.as he has a nice and capable gf who can cook for him.indirectly telling me that my brother's gf is hopeless and that i shld start to learn how to cook as well.like WADEVA.LOL.anw.my hamham gaf birth to THREE cute and red lil things.LOL.its BLIND.haha.anws, just wana thank YIYUAN for pei-ing me ytd and treating me to my tiramisu cake.YAY.haha.and KENNY for treating me to watch the island.woohoo.THANKS alot!.yaya.gtg le.blog another time.

2005-07-20T03:07:00.000-07:00

OMG.i haf two kittens roaming all over my hse.my crazy brother decided that theu look so cute and vunerable and thot that i would do everyone good to bring two kittens, full of FLEAS home.im UTTERLY freaked out by them.bleah.one of them has blood-shot eyes.and it POUNCES!!!the other one looks more tame.well jiaqi is currently oer at my hse supposedly for tuition but my elder brother succumbed to his medication and fell aslp instead.so jiaqi is currently the kittens-maid.LOL.she feeds them milk using a teaspoon so that they can lapel and helps them find fleas.like WOW.LOL.now they just fell aslp but im obviously so threaten then every 3-4 words that i type, i look over to where they are slping to make sure that they are not BOUNCING over to my side.okae.im reassured.even when jiaqi talk so loudly, they arent wwaken means they are dead alsp.LOL.now he doesnt noe wad to do wif the cats.haiz.i seriously haf a brain-less brother.arghh.who cares.he shall sort it out himself.

nvm.forget him and the kittens.im FINALLY 16.LOL.hee.its not sweet la.at least i haf superbly nice friends who gaf me ultimately nice presents!hee.and i received a few messages at 12 on sat nite.HEE.which makes it the 17th le.yayy.

THANKS to the following people who sent me an sms:
(not in any particular order.)

`lijing`cynthia`jeslin`sueann`jiaqi`lydia
`grace`yiyuan`lynette`jerilyn`aline`jan
`sophia`jessica`kathryn`melissa chua
`brice`wong zhixin.

ALSO, double THANKS to these people who gaf me a present!

`Julia sis, Matthew korkor, and Nathaniel - thanks for that little note!HEE.
`Grace - omg.the bottle cute!thanks for the picture.
`Lydia - thanks for the worm!
`Jiaqi - doggy notebook.((:
`Lynette - thanks! it fits.
`Lijing - thanks for the bracelet.super pretty!!help me thank ur dad for pei-ing you too.:P
`Jeslin, Sueann, Melissa chua, Cynthia, Evon and Kathryn - thanks for the present:))
`Aline - Thanks for th bookmark.haha.its nice:))
`Xiaojie - the mars bar rocks!:P
`Nicole - the present maybe late but i was late for urs too.haha.thanks loads, my ex-sitting partner.
`my two toot brothers - even tho harry potter was sad, but i LOVE the book.YAYY!
`my beloved DADDY - THANKS for the watch.LOVE YOU LOADS.

and THANKS to YiYuan who offered to buy me the tiramisu cake from coffee bean.((:love ya!so sweet:P

and also brice and kenny who offered to treat me movies and food.((:haha.so nice arh?!LOL.

and definitely to my one-and-only pal who treated me to swensens, Lijing.Even tho we couldnt enjoy it thoroughly, im really over the moon that u treated me!thankyou hao peng you.((:

(now the cats are trying to fight.like i said, they are madd.now my mum wants to enclose them in a BASKET.poor things.)

oh yah!grace drew a picture of xiao lang from cardcaptor.and kero.OH MAN!thanks grace.i LOVE it and you too!HEE.

and thanks to anyone else whom i have absent-mindedly left out.THANKS AND SORRY!
ohh!jiaqi, thanks for that treat of ice-cream and the birthday song on ur blog.LOL.haha.

now this makes me realise that i haf so many people who cared about me.WOOHOO.im LOVED.and im loving every second of it.hahas.im finally reassured.YAYYS.and definitely to the most special person i haf met in this 16 yrs of my life, the person who shares the same chinese name and birthday as me, WONGY.HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU TOO!haha.we are 16.LOL.like nicole said, we can go watch NC-16 shows le.LOL.haha.

yeapp.sum may not care but i now i haf caring friends who i treasure as much as they do me.THANKS loads.love you guys to bites!haha.i dun bite.HEE.and definitely my family!hee.and yewyew who made pizza at her hse so i can go eat.LOL.thankya!

YAYY.hahas.but den being 16 has its woes as well.nvm. with age, comes responsibilty. i will survive.HEE.now i shall hafta go offline and let my brother use the comp.he looks sick tho.LOL.nites peeps.and THANKS!

ohh!harry potter is so sad!and its ending a little abrupt.but its okae.i shall look forward to the next book, which i think is going to take years to come.-rolls eyes.
but its okae, i MUST wait.i hope harry doesnt die.TOO much death to deal wif le.HAHAs.

`anythingbitterhasasweettastetoenditall.

2005-07-15T07:46:00.000-07:00

oh wells.todae was chinese listening comprehension.BLEAHH.nvm.i noe i haf one wrong.arhh.who cares.its OVER.lala.was trying to find a song lyrics that describe my mood now, and all i can say is that i cant seem to find any.haiz.

just talked to jing the NUT on the fone and she was telling me how dense guys can get.i totally agree wif her lah!i mean guys are so freaky dense that they simply dun get wad we are trying to say.as quoted from jing's blog, "his density is really amazing i wonder if he can float at all."HAHA.i like totally AGREE lah.LOL.

anw, the show on tv is talking about that guy who committed sucide because of problems in his relationship wif his FIRST love.my goodness.i dun understand how anyone can realli reach the stage where things get so bad and life no longer seems appealing and then poof.u died.i dun think i will ever understand.maybe its realli xiang bu kai.nvm.its like such a pity.haiz.what's wrong wif the world anyway? its either suicide or chopping sumone up or terror bombing case.tsk.i think the world has simply uped and gone crazy.-shakes head violently-forget it.i dun think i will understand the mindset of these people.seriously i wonder how wld one person feel when committing suicide.im CURIOUS.LOL.
does ur life flash before ur eyes?
do u feel the impact?
fine.im abit mad too.LOL.

actually im like a bit pissed that things arent settled the way i thot it wld la.but i guess i can nv take for granted that everyone wld give into me.LOL.let me correct my mistake.maybe im just sick and tired of how im always listening to others talk about their problems.its like being aunt agony or sumthing.LOL.nvm.i just gona say this once and for all.

u told me TOO MUCH about her personality and characteristics.given the fact that im already hold myself in rather low esteem.i dun wana compete wif the ghost of ur memories of her.thanks but no thanks.she is everything that i can never be.im who i am.i cant fit myself into that mould of sumone sweet and kind-hearted.

life is GREAT.i haf been fully booked for the next two days.LOL.and i guess i hafta return sueann a treat of ice-cream since she treated me on her bdae on monday.HEE.im SOOOO happy.tmr can collect the HARRY POTTER NEW BOOK.woohoo.HEHE.im OVERJOYED.lol.me, hoho, and jiaqi haf decided to get yew sumthing for her hse-warming.heyy.grace, arent u just excited?!haha.and i hafta go concert wif jing the NUT tmr nite agn.LOL.she's treating me to swensens.woohoo.anyway i realised im taking a superbly long time to post a single blog entry so i better stop her then.update another day.

my mum din get me my COFFEE BEAN TIRAMISU CAKE.im SAD.haha.yiyuan, im utterly heart-broken.LOL.

`dustarebeingstirredintoawhirlwind.

2005-07-13T03:35:00.000-07:00

glassshattered...

im like living in a world that is so fragile and anything mite shatter any moment like a big piece of glass.i have nv been so unsure of life.at least nv been so lost or confused about my social circle.there are definitely people [thanks hoho, yew, soh and lai.] whom i can count on but there is so much more [you] that i cant.

tryinghardtoescapefromitall...

life seems unfalteringly freaky at times. i wonder whether its our choice that makes us feel the worst at times.bleagh.i duno wad to sae.

copingwiththeloss...

i apologise for wad i did.im not the person u seem to think i am.u DUN understand me AT ALL.so i guess there's no point in trying to make u understand.i haf been hiding behind this facade for 7 mths and counting.i guess i finally blown my top.i guess people mite say this is not surprising of me.this is the REAL me.take it or leave it.

whatever.

im happy wif my friends and i truly thank them for always being there for me.especially the mongmongs.and my bestest best pal, jing the nut.((:thanks.and definitely the lamey and lameo princess.yayy.and melly welly.[not wally.im sorry.] THANKS SO MUCH!love ya bunches of grapes.:)

`nows the time to face the truth.((:

2005-07-08T07:03:00.000-07:00

yoohoo.im back to crap.LOLs.that sound ULTIMATELY corny.ahh.wadeva.my mum is persuading my dad to get me a new baby G.like FINALLY!!!whee!and i told mummy i wan a coffee bean tiramisu cake.but actually, gif me my cousin make de tiramisu cake and i will die rite after eating and go straight to heaven.LOLs.and i dun mind having a chocolate banana cake.WHOOOO.im telling myself to dream on.LOLs.ahh.im MAD!

went to shop for sueannie's present.-i tink she died.cos she was supposed to meet me and jeslin online.hahas.-and melissa had to use her card and sign for the present cos we dun haf enuff money.LOLs...

[sueannie]heyy.u got an expensive present cuming for u since 22 people are sharing the present.HAHA.so cool huh?haha.anw.for in case im not updating before monday.HAPPY SWEET SIXTEEN!!hehe.hope u like ur present when u see it on monday.((:

melissa gaf us the bu shuang face when she had to sign the slip.-aww poor thing....- lols.i tink she feels like murdering us for using the money in her bank acc.HAHAs.anws.i shall stop toking about suannie's present b4 i leak the whole thing out.MUAHAHAHA.i will not gif sue a chance to find out wad it is!hahas.so childish.LOL.

im trying so hard to blog while toking to two ulu-mulus.and the one of the mulus is jeslin LOW bee YAN.she is utterly bored and we are typing words like doinks, poinks, yoinks, coinks, toinks, koinks and lalala.HAHA.c how bored she was.actually, my main purpose of cuming online to blog was to make myself heard but after that rarring session i had wif melly-wally and kanasai de, i dun feel much like rarring le.

[you all]wads wrong wif u all?i mean wads so NICE about u guys dat we hafta talk about you all?seriously, if u cant trust us enuff to believe that we DID NOT talk behind ur back, den it isnt worth being friends from the staring or even resolving this whole matter to be frens agn.take it or leave it.we really did NOT talk about u guys.what we really did was to gossip about our almost sympathetic love-life.OKAE?!like y shld i even be explaining sumthing that i had NOT done?!tskk.i really wanna resolve the whole matter just to let my FRAZZLED nerves haf a gdnite rest.this whole matter has been pressing on my nerves since school reopened.LIKE my brother told me, i shld just ignore u guys.SO CHILDISH.LOLs.

oh wells.done wif rarr-ing.so short.mulu is gonna say her longer than mine.HAHAs.aiyah.wadevaa.i felt relieved now that i haf yew and hoho back on talking terms and them telling me how much i mean to them.HEHE.i haf NICE and LOVABLE friends who trust and BELIEVES me when i did not do anything wrong.thank you guys.especially to hoho and yewyew.

"it is only wif the heart that one can see rightly."-the little prince, antoine de saint-exupery.

friends who are worth keepin are those wif heart of gold!hee.like wad melly-wally saed just now. how she wished that everyone were as innocent as people who were in her sec 2 class. HOW I WISH FOR THAT TOO! but wells, people change, like wad i always told grace. how life would be too smooth sailing if we are constantly agreeing and compromising wif each other. then when the going gets too smooth, we tend to slip and fall. only when there are incoming rocks and boulders in life, den can we really appreciate the true meaning of friendship. Life is always full of boulders and if we are going to be squashed by one miserable boulder than wads the point of carrying one living? hence forth, i believe that people MUST dare to succeed and take risk to aim for the better.HEE.then we will really start to appreciate the rolling pastures in the later part of life.to taste the sweetest things, we hafta taste the bitter side 1st.

me and jeslin and melissa agree that we are violent people who always resort to using violence to resolve the biggest problems.but comparing me to them, i think im the most mellowed one.HAHA.i love myself too much to NOT want to inflict so much pain on myself to take the effort to punch sum dumb ass who doesnt even noe they are in the wrong.but if and when the time cums for a few slaps and punches, i will NOT hesitate to inflict the biggest amount of pain to make the person as miserable as im.muahaha.im that much a sadists.

anws.[sophie]takkaire.dun cry animore okie.we all love you like crazee.((:

i better publish this post 1st.LOL.coz jeslin say i blog super slow and if she dun c my entry the next time she go to my page, she will resort to violence.hehe.i love to piss jeslin off like crazee.LOL.gtg.nites.

`lifearefullofsecrets,lies,love,kissesandtears.((:

2005-07-03T18:18:00.000-07:00

Never Had A Dream Come True - S Club 7

Everybody's got something they had to leave behind
One regret from yesterday that just seems to grow with time
There's no use looking back or wondering
How it could be now or might have been
Oh this I know but still I can't find ways to let you go

I've never had a dream come true
Till the day that I found you
Even though I pretend that I've moved on
You'll always be my baby
I never found the words to say
You're the one I think about each day
And I know no matter where life takes me to
A part of me will always be with you

Somewhere in my memory
I've lost all sense of time
and tomorrow can never be cos yesterday is all that fills my mind
There's no use looking back or wondering
How it could be now or might have been
Oh this I know but still I can't find ways to let you go

I've never had a dream come true
Till the day that I found you
Even though I pretend that I've moved on
You'll always be my baby
I never found the words to say
You're the one I think about each day
And I know no matter where life takes me to
A part of me will always be

You'll always be the dream that fills my head
Yes you will, say you will, you know you will
Oh baby, you'll always be the one I know I'll never forget
There's no use looking back or wondering
Because love is a strange and funny thing
No matter how I try and try I just can't say goodbye
No no no no

I've never had a dream come true
Till the day that I found you
Even though I pretend that I've moved on
You'll always be my baby
I never found the words to say (words to say)
You're the one I think about each day
And I know no matter where life takes me to
A part of me will always be
A part of me will always be with you

im bored.so i decided not to blog.LOL.loads to do later.haiz.

`always here.((:

2005-07-02T20:21:00.000-07:00

Come What May - Nicole Kidman and Ewan McGregor

Never knew I could feel like this
Like I've never seen the sky before
I want to vanish inside your kiss
Every day i'm loving you more than this
Listen to my heart, can you hear it sings
Telling me to give you everything
Seasons may change, winter to spring
But I love you until the end of time

Chorus:
Come what may
Come what may
I will love you until my dying day

Suddenly the world seems such a perfect place
Suddenly it moves with such a perfect grace
Suddenly my life doesn't seem such a waste
It all revolves around you
And there's no mountain too high
No river too wide
Sing out this song I'll be there by your side
Storm clouds may gather
And stars may collide
But I love you until the end of time

Chorus

Oh, come what may, come what may
I will love you, I will love you
Suddenly the world seems such a perfect place

Chorus

this song is the theme song for Moulin Rouge the Movie.hee.nice.and my brother has been tring to find this song for duno how long liao.but i dun understand y he din bother to go download it, so i was doing him this super BIG favor by downloading the song.LOL.

i was looking thru this book of quotes and i saw this quote that says:

"love does the make the world go round; it just makes the ride [around the world] worthwhile."

haha.was blog surfing in the last mth when i cldnt blog at all.then i went to Kenny's blog and saw this quote:

"Aim high, because if you fall, you will land on the clouds"

well.i thot it was encouraging to everyone out there. especially to all me friends who are taking the o level's this year. takkaire, everyone.

lydia say i very lovey-dovey.HAHA.aiyah.i haf been told that im a HOPELESS ROMANTIC.LOL.okae lor.i haf nothing to comment on that.HEE.who dun crave to be love?hehe.im craving for chocolate chip cookies now.anyone who gifs me a packet of famous amos no-nut choc chip cookies now, i wld love u and cherish u to bits.LOL.im HUNGRY!!!.well.i haf a packet of potato chips.but not very appetizing le.hehe.FORGET it.im not in the mood to blog le.shall surf the net instead.HEE.

`lavenderflower.((:

2005-07-02T02:58:00.000-07:00

GOOD CHARLOTTE - We Believe.
There's a woman crying out tonight
Her world has changed
She asks God why
Her only son has died
And now her daughter cries
She can't sleep at night

Downtown
Another day for all the suits and ties
Another war to fight
There's no regard for life
How do they sleep at night
How can we make things right?
Just wanna make this right

We believe *6
In this love

We are all the same
Human in all our ways and all of pain
(So let it be)
There's a love that could fall down like rain
(Let us see)
Let forgiveness wash away the pain
(What we need)
And no one really knows what they are searching for
(We believe)
This world is crying for so much more

We believe *6
In this love

We believe *6
In this love

So this world
Is too much
For you to take
Just lay it down in front of me
I'll be everything you need
In every way

We believe*6
In this love
(In this love)
We believe
(In this love)
We believe
(In this love)
We believe
(In this love)

nicee songg.hee.so much about the pain and hopelessness in the world.THEREFORE, we must always dream and HOPE!

[jeslin]rite?haha.must keep ur hope high in beancurd.LOL.((:

jeslin let me listen to the song that powerpuff girls sing on cartoon network.LOL.i missed the songs like crazee.haha.im gonna find the lyrics if i can.HEHE.

LOVE makes the world goes round.-cute-

went to MJ's[my form tcher] wedding this morning.he was grinning away like sum tootsie like dat.HAHA.it was a catholic wedding and so we haf to remain ABSOLUTELY QUIET.haha.well.cyn came late.but i shall not go into dat.LOL.we reached b4 the bride at least.LOL.i think MJ invited the whole of CGS.haha.he is TOO rich and his wife very pretty. and sue ann sang during the wedding.we dino at all.wahh.in the dark all the time le.HAHA.

well.during the second reading, i thot the the reading was nice.its frm the bible, Corinthians [13:1-7]:

Love is patient, love is kind. It is not jealous, love is not pompous, it is not inflated, it is not rude, it does not seek its own interests, it is not quick-tempered, it does not brood over injury, it does not rejoice over wrong-doingsbut rejoices with the truth. It bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all thing.

i believe love is not envy either.and to many, love is unconditional giving. however, being the cynical me, i dun believe in perfect love. If a relationship doesnt haf bumps in it, the couples wld tend to take it for granted.when they start doing that, cracks appear. love shows the best and the worst out of everyone. if we do love sumone unconditionally, we wld ignore the flaws and uncover the hidden diamond within each other. Love is about being able to thrash things out and be able to build a strong foundation out of the argument. Love or be loved? Both, i hope.

anw, after the wedding, we went to junction8. the usual co. lor.except jiaqi cos she go wif cherlynn and frens to Kbox.HAHA.walk walk and look for sueann's present tho we din find anything suitable.Finally ate macs for lunch and went bowling at marina south there.i think we are madd.LOL.too bored, u c..so bowled for two hrs plus and i admit defeat.my bowling skills is HORRENDOUS.LOL.and i bet the machine is operated my jerily cos cynthia was given SOOOOO many 2nd chances.either that, or she has a STRIKE.kanasai.we were pissed.haha.nvm lah.play play de mah.dun need to be so competitive.haha.den go home le.im sooo dead now.last nite 1plus den get to go to bed and had to walk up at 6.30 to go macs meet jiaqi for breakfast and to wait for that stoopid dong xi who came 22 mins late.HAHA.si dong xi.bleahh.

[jing]dun be so pissed lah.he is the biggest jerk i haf eve heard about.LOL.ignore him and dun bother wasting ur precious emotions on this kinda guy.love is NOT obession.u dun hafta care abt this dumbo.HEE.all the best anw.just dun go find sumone so idiotic like THAT jerk.hee.

im gg to eat dinner soon even tho im supa full like a over-stuffed hamster.LOL.

[you]lift up ur heart.((:

2005-07-01T08:46:00.000-07:00

YAYY!i finally can cum blog le.my korkor finally repaired the com on the day jiaqi forgot to attend tuition which is on thursday.HAHA.
went shopping just now wif jeslin and gang, which also includes jiaqi, cynthia, jerilyn and melissa.but that two lovebirds went home 1st.so left wif the 4 spastic us.
oh wells.we tried to act glam in paragon but sum cannot-make-it de dong xi kept walking like ah lian lidat.lol.oh man we like sum madd cows lidat.at 1st they went far east and say they will cum cine and look for me.so lynette was stucked wif me the whole while.lol.poor thing.she looked supa tired cos she tried to chase after grace's bus to wave to her.den they finally came and i cldn't walk lyn to the bus-stop.sorry lyn..
den i saw dat jingo-nut in town wearing a [as quoted]"super disgusting" outfit of her skl's[njc] pe shirt and shorts, i tink.but sum ppl dun wanna wait for me.and only replied me an hr after i last msg her so i went out wif THE gang lo.haha.we practically dominated burgerking la.cos i tink we were talking the loudest and i saw several stares.HAHA.

erbs, lydiaaaaaa just went offline.im SO SAD!and jan abandoned me to go watch INUYASHA!bleahh.

OH YAH!my sms just bao-ed and i can only start msg-ing on tuesday.SAD!!

[lyn]y u so smart and cop my idea?lol.i oso wanted to remain anon. de lor!haha.but i decided not too.(personal joke)

anw, back to the topic.we walked to paragon, den to lucky plaza and back to paragon.cos dat kanasai melissa decided to buy her shoes at paragon instead.lol.its CUTE.haha.den we happily walked to pacific plaza so dat jeslin can buy her roxy handbag but in the end, she bought a ripcurl one.DUH!jiaqi picked one that looked like the person carrying it is on the run.AHAHAHA.so jeslin refused to let jiaqi comment on the one she chose herself.i am SO honoured to be able to comment.woohoo.haha.lame.-looks for wheelchair-
den jeslin tried to tok me into getting the roxy bag but its the last piece so in the end, we still took a bus back to HEEREN.wahh piang.i tink my ez-link is dying.LOL.but den, heeren dun haf the pink one so i bought the blue one instead.haha.but im NOt using the POLKA-DOTTED side.can flip inside out mah.hehe.so cute.BUT i owe that kanasai money.haiz.and we took neos.supa lame.

anw, while THE gang was hafing chinese os oral, i went out wif grace and lynette-r.lol.grace bought this nike bag for her mother's long over-dued bdae present.lol.so mean rite?haha.then we went long john's to eat lunch.hee.after dat, the mongmongs were so bored dat we went all the way to HEEREN to take neos.lol.well, the neos look supa spastic and lame abd the machine is SO lousy.i hereby declare that far east de neos machine better.lol.the ones at heeren are supa ex and they gif us so little time to design our neos lor.so now my neos look uber plain.eeks.nvm its over.i cant do anything.

my dad gif me my allowance le.so happy.haha.but im still poor lah.makes no diff.lol.
anw, the new greenday song is nice.wake me up when september ends.hee.here's the lyrics:

Summer has come and passed
The innocent can never last
wake me up when september ends

like my fathers come to pass
seven years has gone so fast
wake me up when september ends

here comes the rain again
falling from the stars
drenched in my pain again
becoming who we are

as my memory rests
but never forgets what I lost
wake me up when september ends

summer has come and passed
the innocent can never last
wake me up when september ends

ring out the bells again
like we did when spring began
wake me up when september ends

here comes the rain again
falling from the stars
drenched in my pain again
becoming who we are

as my memory rests
but never forgets what I lost
wake me up when september ends

Summer has come and passed
The innocent can never last
wake me up when september ends

like my father's come to pass
twenty years has gone so fast
wake me up when september ends
wake me up when september ends
wake me up when september ends

gg to slp le.tired.bleahh.tmr got josef tan's wedding.lol.gonna haf fun.hee.

to you:takkaire always.hugs-

2005-06-01T02:59:00.000-07:00

muahaha..im in jiaqi's hse now.jeslinrawks.
obviously is jeslin type one.now she is gone.off to find more vcds to bring home.haha.
oh well, my hse com still screwed.soi hafta impose on jiaqi lor.
chinese o's suck lar.but wadeva.like i wld care.if i hafta retake then retake lor.i noe i din put in all lot of eefort to study so i wun be surprised if i really hafta retake.
yesterdae i spent half a dae wif jiaqi, jeslin and cynthia in town shopping and i almost died.anyone who went out wif jeslin wld understand how i feel.muahaha.she is utterly mad and when paired wif cynthia, they r formidable lor.absolutely!!!haha..
then todae,we went cycling at eastcoast.im dead tired now.and cyn and jes are so super hyper la.can really die lor.
**jiaqi's keyboard is so difficult to use**
went melissa's hse just now.i tink she regretted our visit.haha.jes's main purpose was to ruin her hse but its messy beyond hope so jeslin treated her like a servant instead.haha.poor thing.bored.now the room really super quiet.haha.made myself at home wif the songs in her com.btw, its an imac so its like practically foreign to me.

oh yar, maybe in the third week,i mite be going to genting wif my parents.and relatives on my mum side.haiz.i dun lookforward tothe journey there.but okie lor.go lor.hehe.iwanna try the new roller coaster.heard that its super fun.haha.
gtg le lah.jiaqi has been locked out of her OWN room.how sad is dat?!haha.and she was scratching at the door like a dog.muahaha.okie lah.byee.

2005-05-21T03:38:00.000-07:00

in my godma hse now.in a hurry to post one entry b4 ryan cums and snatch the com from me.
well, i realised that its my com the cookies sumthing wrong so i can post or publish anything at all.like wadeva lah.my brother sae he wld go do sumthing abt it but i think it will take a long time lah.so mite as well dun post 1st lor.haha.

the other dae i was in popular and was reading the chicken soup for the teenage soul 3 and this story titled "the gift of time" was really touching.it was about this couple who are actually step-siblings and they loved each other deeply.however, they were not given the chance to spend the rest of their lives together because of a car accident in which the guy died.these are the kind of stories that makes u realise that life is super short as u nv noe wad mite happen to u in a blink of an eye.i hope that i would be able to treasure the people around me and live to a ripe old age.

last nite, was reading kenny's blog and i realise its best to be just a freethinker.i noe its a matter of perspective in how u see each and every religion.but look at jiaqi.she is practically struggling to cope wif two religions all because she was to learn the truth.at least that is how i viewed her.well, is it really worth the effort?i dun believe that we can actually find the truth of any religion.if u are a christian, u would just believe each and every of its faith.its the same when u r a catholic.
guess i gtg le.cya.

2005-04-08T02:08:00.000-07:00

hahah.ilovejeslin!-beams.
and that orbeet zhixin thinks jeslin dont know how to blog!!-screams.

for goodness sake! the world noe it isnt me lah.chey.jeslin v gong toot.muahahaha.
okae.back to my post.forget wad i saed the last time round.i was just toking crap.its so not me to be so depressing.but it means when i sae i noe its my fault.

skl's been hectic.and my internet explorer is screwed..dat's why i haven been online for a long time.paiseh..
todae we gaf kav her present.and crazee jeslin trying to use up all her old newspaper at home to wrap kav's present.so the present looks super big even though its supposedly 1/82 of the size.
she saes:"yayy.i win."haha.u win u queen lor!

gtg liao lah..im gg to surf blogs..hehe.
ilovejeslin-like real..haha

2005-03-26T08:13:00.000-08:00

so tired of standing alone.

i realised soo many things today.went to lydia's blog just now.after reading her post.i thot i mite as well hop over to yiyuan's blog and take a look.i staretd to reflect back one all the petty things that i did over the years and i feel so guilt-ridden.im soo sorry.

[yiyuan]i noe no amount of apology would actually erase away all the hurt that i haf inflicted on u.im sorry for anything that i haf done and everything that i haven done, but shld haf done.i noe i haf failed thoroughly as a fren.im sorry.i guess i never saw u as a normal human being who wld actually be hurt over and over agn and not complain to anyone.u nv striked me as a depressed sort of person.u sae u put up a facade.and im sorry dat i nv tried to peel away that exterior and look further in and try to understand u.im soooo sorry.i really hope u noe dat there are people who luvs u.

im starting to hate myself as a person.i realised i did many things dat people would deem selfish and consider a failure.i feel so crushed...so defeated.its like the world is about to cum crashing down on me. and seemingly take away everything that i luved.

[you]i thot u wld haf sensed that i wasnt myself.but den, u didnt.i dun fault u.i just wished, sumtimes dat u wld be less cold.

but i noe that not all wishes cum true.life is just that cruel.humans do lie.and no matter how hard ppl try to get me to believe in christanity.life wld always show me a different stand.i duno wad to believe anymore.

yet i noe, suicide is not an easy escape.its not a solution, its just a way of showing that ppl are trying to run away from their troubles.i dun wana die.i haf so much to do.and yiyuan, i hope u wun too.

i want brand new start but i noe i cant haf it.
sumtimes i think frens are a lie too.im soo sorry.

2005-03-24T08:31:00.000-08:00

Did I hear you right?
'Cos i thought you said,
Lets think it over.
You have been my life,
And I never planned,
Growing old without you.

Shadows bleeding through the light,
Where the love once shined so bright,
Came without a reason.
Don't let go on us tonight,
Love's not always black and white,
Why haven't I always loved you?

And when I need you
You're almost here
And I know thats,
Not enough.
And when I'm with you,
I'm close to tears,
'Cos you're only almost here.

I would change the world,
If I had a chance,
Oh won't you let me.
Treat me like a child,
Throw your arms around me,
Oh please protect me.

Bruised and battered by your words,
Dazed and shattered now it hurts.

Oh havent I always loved you?

And when I need you
You're almost here
And I know thats,
Not enough.
And when I'm with you,
I'm close to tears,
'Cos you're only almost here.

Oooh oh

Bruised and battered by your words,
Dazed and shattered now it hurts

Haven't I always loved you?

But when i need you,
You're almost here

Well I never knew how far behind I left you

And when I hold you,
You're almost here

Well I'm sorry that I took our love for granted

And now I'm with you,
I'm close to tears

'Cos I know I'm almost here.
Only almost here

ALMOST HERE[by brian mcfadden and delta goodrem]
nice song but its so sad lor...-sobs-
tmr is good friday..im sooo busy lah...duno how i will last thru the whole day intact..bleahx..x
went macs wif lyn, cyn and jq.we sat there to tok for abt an hour lidat...den went home at 11 lidat..my dad and mum kept calling my fone.wahh.sian man...
haiz...im think i gg offline soon...

[*rachelyeo:just added ur link.sorry.((:]

2005-03-17T06:51:00.000-08:00

boohoo...im back to blog..so bored...was supposed to help him put links on his blog...but it kinda screwed up.. :((
gg to creative warehse sale on sat..finally can go buy the mp3 player..hehe.
tmr gg for the sec4 guides gathering at sentosa.
woohoo.((:but i think i'll end up looking like a lobster agn..long time since i went beach wif the gang.duno whether hoho can go tmr...
she got fever...sobs.get well soon hoho...
haiyah...
gtg le...
blog another time...

2005-03-14T05:52:00.000-08:00

oh! campfire was a great success lah!whee!

sec4 guides:i luv u guys!we rocked!hehe..anw.thanks for tolerating my nonsense when i was
badmooding abt the sounvenirs and stuff...

im sooo gonna miss guides when we pass over to the sec3s.haiz...
i missed all the camps..we had sooo much fun during those short periods of time...
all those years i haf lost becoz i didnt really participated and i was really bored and i didnt tink greatly of guides..
funny how only when we are all put thru so much turmoil, the bond grows closer...im gonna missed everyone sooo much.sobbs.
work hard hor sec3s...
read rachel yeo's blog..
rachel:dun be sad lah...things lidat happens every year.smiles(:

went for nite tour on fri nite...
almost died lah...at least can slp on the coach...phew...

last nite i spent one hr plus in macs drinking LARGE coke...at 10 pm lah...
who's fault was it huh?
haha...i managed to finish it anw...
haha...but thanx anw...i had fun...hehe...didnt see my dad at all.he went to slp le and the nxt morning he left for penang.wonder if he is mad...

anws.got a hamster...so cute...robrowski.cost me a bundle but i shared wif my younger brother...
so it wasnt dat bad...duno wad to name it...its sooo scared of my and my brother and kept running arnd the cage like sum mad cow lidat...haha...

gtg le...i took 2 hrs to write this coz i was busily using msn...
haha...(:

oh oh! lydia wants me to help her advertise her new blog...
http://bozo-de-jojo.blogspot.com
go check it out and link her...otherwise she will be sad..muahahaha...((:

2005-03-04T04:55:00.000-08:00

[you]:do u really think that im so stoopid to not be able to noe wads happening?harlow!wake up will u.u just take things so easily, like u haf no responsibilities at all...its our sec 4 yr le and u still take things so simply.do u really think that u r hafing a holiday?!haiz...i duno wad to say anymore...
and u were the one who said we shldnt keep so many secrets..

[you]]:i wonder wad is happening to us.i wonder if its my fault dat we are so distant...why does things always seem to end like dat...?

haizz...its been a busy week..next sat is the campfire and i still haf souvenirs not done and the prizes!i wanna scream leh..

thanks to:

-yiyuan
-lysia
-yuxiu
-shiyun
-sheryl
-sophia
-saratri
-chien ru
and to anyone else whom i haf forgotten to list, sorry and thankew!

happy.got 2 A1s for amaths and emaths...and A2 for bio..the rest i dun wanna list, neither do i wana tok abt it...sucks lah...i suck.

*the two yous refer to two different people.

2005-02-27T00:57:00.000-08:00

todae was such a moody day...there's no sun at all!
supposed to be typing the english oral thingy, but den i thot i might as well blog 1st...

"forgiveness means letting go of a hurtful situation and moving on wif ur happiness."`amanda ford.
"a ship in a harbour is safe but that is not wad ships are built for."`william shedd.

dat's y life is so full of risk and we just hafta learn to overcum all the given obstacles dat r in our everyday life.

i cant stand dat lai jiaqi.duno y her com always can c my tiny words clearly.sian.i shall just write in my diary.den she wun get to c.or i can consider changing my blog to private like lijing.hehe...c lah...
LIJING:where's my v dae prezzie?!

still must wait one more week den can go get a hamster.all my brother's school fault.if his common test ended last week, i would haf been able to get my hamster todae.grr...qian bian de.now must wait...):
gtg le...duno wad to say le.

-is it ever gonna happen?!

2005-02-25T03:06:00.000-08:00

yayy.so much happened during the week.and now its weekend le...tmr can go see zachary!!!whee!cute little boy.hehe.cleared up sum doubts too.i dun blame you anymore.(:

is life worth so little to u?y is it dat u want to die sooo much?maybe i dun understand ur stand becoz i haf nv been in that situation.but still, i believe we still haf so much to rejoice and be grateful for in this world.and there is sooo much to do.i seriously wonder whether a lifetime is enough to complete everything...

gtg le...later going to watch constantine..hehe(:at 9.30pm.hoots.

2005-02-23T05:11:00.000-08:00

-stop lying will you?i can see thru u so clearly.-

common test is over le.whee.i think the citigem ad song is sooo nice.woohoo.haiz...somethings are so hard to be expressed.i just wished you wld stop lying to me.that's it.

All my life
Is changing everyday
In every possible way
And all my dreams
It's never quite as it seems
Never quite as it seems
I know I've felt like this before
But now I'm feeling it even more
Because it came from you
And then I open up and see
The person falling here is me
A different way to be
Lalalaah lalalah lalalaah la la la
I want more (impossible to ignore)
(impossible to ignore)
And they'll come true (impossible not to do)
(impossible not to do)
And now I tell you openly
You have my heart so don't hurt me
You're what I couldn't find
A totally amazing mind
So understanding and so kind
You're everything to me
All my life
Is changing everyday
In every possible way
And all my dreams
It´s never quite as it seems
Because you´re a dream to me (a dream to me)
laaah laa la la la la la la la laaahaah laaahaah la laa
laaah laa la la la la la la la laaahaah laaahaah la laa
laaah laa la la la la la la la laaahaah laaahaah la laa
laaah laa la la la la la la la laaahaah laaahaah la laa(fade)

dream by cranberries
that was the song.nice lor..but cant add the song source to my blog.cant find it.sad.
anw.gtg.that skip is naggy me to write testimonial for him...hahaha.siao one lah.

2005-02-19T07:47:00.000-08:00

finally got into blogger.this is so time consuming.im supposed to be studying lor.*acts innocent*
haha..went fot thinking and i saw mrs lee.but nv go tok to her lah.like i so free.not like we can walk arnd the indoor stadium as we please.and dat hoho dun wana msg her.mean!hehe.

*just because you love someone doesnt mean you have to be involved with them. love is not a bandage to cover wounds.-Hugh Elliott.
*when someone allows you to bear his burdens, you have found deep friendship.-Real Live Preacher.

i luv quotes.haha.duno y.after common test, im so gonna go for a shopping spree.window shopping spree.haha.c lah.if i can fing money den maybe lo...

true love happens at the most unexpected times like in spirited away and shrek.life is meaningless without the love of friends and family and most of all lovers.sumtimes its just a wish.maybe it might cum true.i'll never noe.the higher the hope, the greater the impact of disappointment when it doesnt live up to standards..

-dun mind being the bystander.if only i can.

2005-02-11T06:25:00.000-08:00

lydia is soo mean!was toking to her just now abt wad she gona gif ppl for v day.den she must remind me the rock-hard cookies i baked two yrs back.eh! not my fault lah! dat time the recipe screwed mah! hehe...two more days to valentine day.whoots.but sad.haf guides on dat day lah! pissing off...dun feel like gg but its thinking day rehearsal lor.if dun go den mite malu myself on thinking day if i make a wrong move.haiz..

common test is cuming.another sad news.y lidat?!sigh.if only v day is a holidae den can stay at home all day.i shall write dis in advance in case i dun cum online on dat day or b4 dat.

HAPPY VALENTINE DAY TO EVERYONE SINGLE OUT DERE!

haha.i luv myself.*hugs*and also...

HAPPY advanced BDAE TO CYNTHIA!

her birthdae is on 17feb.cheers!whee.she is soon-to-be 16.haha.lao le.unlike me so young and carefree.haha.no lah.she is young at heart.hehe.

[to cynthia: dun humpthump me for saying u old hor.just joking.hehe.happy sweet sixteen to u.*grins widely*now must be wise liao.and stop being so crappy!and STOP burping for once and act like a real lady and leader of tmr.haha.okae, now to be serious.happy burfdae!hehe.best wishes.takkaire.luv ya.]

[to you: cum out, cum out.wherever you are. ]

haha.dats the theme phrase for the new movie, hide and seek.haha.so cool.but i dun tink im gona catch dat movie.unless money fall frm the sky.or courage fall frm the sky lah.ppl here scared mah.hehe.

i luv to use the tiny fonts so no one can see wads not meant to be seen.(:

sumtimes i wish the situation was different.dat we meet under different circumstances.but i doubt it would be dat easy.for fate is never dat kind.maybe its not meant to be.maybe i shldnt dare hope for so much.but nth is impossible.and i will say to encourage myself.GO FOR IT!wheee...

gtg le.seems like i haf already saed too much.hmm.

.sum things r meant to be but sum arent.let go when its time to.

2005-02-10T01:57:00.000-08:00

finally got into blogger.thot it was screwed.coz it kept hanging.now v bored.just got home an hr ago frm visiting.i realised this yr's angbao collection is not bad.hehe.im still not rich coz planing to buy mp3 player.still considering.hehe.

haiz.been thinking about sum stuff that meant a lot to me until now.my piriorities seemed to haf changed.i duno.every new yr brings a change to everything.sum changes are irreversible.haiz.i guess it just haf to be accepted.

tmr must go skl.haiz.was hoping for long weekend.but a bit the impossible le.sumore skl end so late then pearlene cuming to gif me tuition.i think she will get an angbao.hehe.gg to visit lyn and cyn on sunday.whee.can get angbaos.shiok.maybe can go yew's and ho's hse.more angbaos.:)

-feels like a deception.duno why.-

Broken hearts, broken dreams
They're just some things that love brings
When you learn that it's all been a lie
You cry
You find that nothing, nothing

Nothing hurts like love
Nothing brings your heart so much pain
And you'll never learn till you get burned
Till you're burned by the flame
Nothing hurts so bad
Nothing hurts so much
No nothing hurts like love

So you gave all you had
How this story turned so sad
Nothing left but the tears in your eyes
You die inside,
'cause nothing, nothing

Nothing hurts like love
Nothing brings your heart so much pain
And you'll never learn till you get burned
Till you're burned by the flame
Nothing hurts so bad
Nothing hurts so much
No nothing hurts like love

So dry your eyes
It's just your turn to learn
Your time to find that nothing, nothing

Nothing hurts like love
Nothing brings your heart so much pain
And you'll never learn till you get burned
Till you're burned by the flame
Nothing hurts so bad
Nothing hurts so much
No nothing hurts like love

2005-02-09T07:24:00.000-08:00

back agn.
haiz.duno how to sae.im so lost.

Oh, why you look so sad?
Tears are in your eyes
Come on and come to me now.
Don't be ashamed to cry,
let me see you through
Cause I've seen the dark side too.
When the night falls on you,
you don't know what to do,
Nothing you confess
could make me love you less

I'll stand by you,
I'll stand by you,
won't let nobody hurt you,
I'll stand by you.

So, if you're mad get mad,
don't hold it all inside,
Come on and talk to me now.
And hey, what you got to hide?
I get angry too
But I'm alot like you.
When you're standing at the crossroads,
don't know which path to choose,
Let me come along,
cause even if your wrong

I'll stand by you,
I'll stand by you,
won't let nobody hurt you,
I'll stand by you.
Take me into your darkest hour,
and I'll never desert you.
I'll stand by you.
And when, when the night falls on you baby,
you're feeling all alone,
You won't be on your own,

I'll stand by you.
I'll stand by you
I'll stand by you,
won't let nobody hurt you.
I'll stand by you

Take me in into your darkest hour and
I'll never desert you
I'll stand by you.

duno how to help you.you always seem to bounce back so much faster than me.thanx for letting me into ur private space.at least now i noe how u really feel.thanx for sharing it wof me.wish u all the best wif him.dun gif up.he will overcum it.i believe u will appreciate wad i told u.take care buddy.*smiles*

now i duno how to help myself.its CNY.i shldnt be blogging abt all this stuff.haiz.i luv dat song.its sad in its own way but its uplifting in sum ways too.haiz.life is all about being dere for sumone and helping dat sumone.maybe its like the philiosophy of karma: we are send to fulfil our duty and constantly sent back to earth to finish dat particular duty.maybe its just fate.haiz.who noes.life is soo complicated in its simplest way.y am i sounding so chim dat i dun een understand myself.haiz.wadeva crap.so crappy today.wadeva.hope to go out wif jing soon.she still owe me my v day prezzie.hehe.:Dgtg.

2005-02-08T19:38:00.000-08:00

im back.
ytd went back to rv to take a look.seriously miss the old skl.so much memories dere.haiz.
den lj finally came back lah.like duno after how long.laopok one.so in the end mw, ange, jing and yuxiu went town to eat subway.who noes when we went to far east, the subway was closed.
so hafta walk to lido instead.and the whole way thru, ange was complaining how hungry she is, how bad the subway at far east is.haha.she is mad lah.wad to do.i got mad frens.hehe.

now my mum and dad trying to forward sms-es to their colleagues.haha.new yr greetings, i guess.make so much noise abt it.wahaha.

ange and yuxiu left 1st.so me and jing went borders to take a look.haiz.no money and no nice books.in the end we walked to taka to liu.haha.den both us started complaining abt how depressing it is.haha.like mad gurls lidat.complain dat got no date for v day, summore got cca on dat day.sianz.so i was nice and treated us both orange julius.haha.almost died walking the whole stretch of orchard.den when home to slp.

and my rashes are back.grr...got two jab frm the freaking doc on monday nite.wahlau.the 1st one, the needle not working or sumthing lidat.pissing off.

forgot to bring my lit text home to study.haiz.and common test is next week.im starting to wonder how am i gonna study wif so much hw not done.haiz...

gtg le.my irritating brother is trying to shoo me off the com.bleahx.

2005-01-30T05:14:00.000-08:00

im finally blogging in like duno how long..got sooo much to say but so little time.
lijing changed her blog to private.now even i cant get into it.i feel like the existing connection btw us is lost.i missed toking to her on the fone.i dun even haf enuff to finish my hw everynite, wad more tok on the fone.i miss sec 3 life.sobs.so much to say but so much that i cant say.

you:i fear rejection dats y i dun wana meet up.hope u understand.dun wana be constantly making excuses to u.i feel so bad.really hope u dun c it the wrong way.

i just changed my furniture for those who duno.now i haf a super empty room wif so many boxes becoz my parents forgot to order the bkshelf.and my room can echo.so cool.*rolls eyes*i haf two tests next wk.just finished 6 last wk.so can see how busy sec 4s are.i haf to do a sample of the guides program sheet for ms azlin to approved.tho, i love my class and my tchers, i hate the amt of work that tags along behind.i feel so stress! haiz.just hafta endure.*sobs.

gtg.duno when i will ever blog agn.yepps.

2004-12-28T22:33:00.000-08:00

IM IN KOREA!!!hoots.okae im mad.but anw im in korea and hafing real fun tho deres no snow.sob.haiz.just came back to the hotel frm shopping.today is free at leisure so we went shopping by using the subway.okae its complicated.its like taking the mrt and continously changing to the NEL.muahaha.everything here is not cheap.so sorry pple, cant get things for ur all.too ex le.sorry!

lijing:i'll still get ur seaweed tho.yup.no worries there.
lydia:u too.

so maybe when i get to hk i'll get stuff for ur frm there kae...yupp.gtg.cya

2004-12-17T08:00:00.000-08:00

whee..my com is finally re-formatted.so HAPPY! means i cant go online everynite.hoots.*grins*i changed my template le as everyone that doesnt haf a stamp over their eyes can c.was in grace hse mah.then i thot might as well change the template rite.muahahaah.haiz.my class wanted a xmas party but i think it has to b cancelled.so sad.coz a lot of people cant make it.sianz...

to the person who tagged at my blog: do i noe u?

okae back here.i realised i practically almost used up my allowance for this mth to buy xmas presents for nathanael, zachary and ryan.hey kiddos, better be glad i got u guys a xmas present.even my own bros i stll haven get yet.muahaha.better dun let them noe.budden wad to get for them.sian lah.plus lyn, lydia, grace and jiaqi's present cost me a bomb liao.i can die.haiz...gd thing im working this mth.hehe

gg korea on the 26th so happy! maybe can c snow!!! muahahaha.anticipating xmas and trip to cum.but i hafta finish all my hw 1st.sian diao....oh yar.

to jq: u need me to get u anything frm hk?

to lj: u want anything?

and jiaqi will, yet agn, go to KL and genting.miss ya and cum back sn kae! and takkaire there.*smiles*
lyn is back frm camp but i haf yet to c her.hehe.
aiyah hafta go le.so sian.tmr gg to hougang pt for work AGN.*groans*
*whispers*its boring.muahaha.*grins*

2004-10-28T03:17:00.000-07:00

heyee...im back.
i can't stand that bloody f-ing person who came and tagged.

to whoever: shut and f urself lah.im not free any nites lah.

im so bored.was at grace's hse today and all the stuff we baked didn't cum out too well.all either burned or uncooked.muahahaah.lydia got so sian of it and she went to use the com.muahahaah.i think only the spaghetti is nice.today no skl.tmr until ten only, so happy...hehe.anw, i a bit pissed wif my results lor.one more mark to A1 le!!!argh!!!now my laopa gonna nag again.later must go photocopy otherwise cannot let my laopa see...
gtg le lah.need to check friendster le.blog another dae.

2004-08-27T06:39:00.000-07:00

im back.
i duno if i was supposed to feel this way.whether i haf the rite to.
you said u r confused.
i reali missed the daes when we had sooo much fun together.its seems like time changed almost everything in a friendship.
i realised i dun even noe u as a person.i knew soooo little and i guess i blame myself for the whole frenship to turn out lidat.i feel distant and left out.i wonder if u reali miss me.
things aren't always i tot it was.it was damn true.i wonder if we never met, would i haf felt so insecured.ireali wonder.
i reali hope u arent angry at me over that incident.i felt horrible.i knew i shldn't interfere.i thot wif sooo many years of frenship at stake, nth wld break its foundation.but i guess i was wrong.maybe it wasn't that bad but i cant help feeling sth to be amiss that u were sooo cold that nite.i thot u wld haf reassured me or sth lidat.
i duno whether i shld believe wad jiaqi told me.but i noe i shld.
i feel damn sensitive about this whole issue.im trying hard to accept the fact that we wld never haf that much closeness b/w us and the fact that things are changing consistently and that i shld leave it as it had always been.mayb i just not trying hard enuff.

*ifeellikesuchapessimist*icanthelpit*

2004-08-17T00:56:00.000-07:00

common test is finally over!!!! YAYY! haha...
now at gracie's hse.wahahaha.the dogs were kajiao-ing me just.
i duno how long nv blog le...wahahahah..lost e touch of e keyboard.typing damn slow now and to think leenette and lydia wanna use the laptop.wahahaha.just now ms chia was showing everyone else the common test chinese marks and i nv see mine.i seriously think that i fail then she dun wanna let everyone c lo...haiz...heck lah.i think i screwed up a lot during this common test...haiz...mummy and daddy is soooo gona be disappointed.maybe my maths are still okae...but who noes...i been lazing everyday anyway.now watching the olympics.wahahahahmark chay last le...urgh..
yesterday went town to take neos wif jiaqi..and last friday oso go town to take neos wif lydia and grace...wahahahaah. lydia looked sooo spastic in the neoprints.today jq went out wif sarah they all...
sianz.i feel sooo sleepy...the freaking laptop is soooo hot...lydia thinks that michael phelps rocks.sumthiang wrong.wahahahaha.aiyah..dun wanna type le lah...try to update as soon as possible lah...my com is screwed so it depends.heheheeh.leenette playing the guitar...has been for the past hour.hehx.

our lips are sealed/the duff sisters
Can you hear them?
They talk about us.
Telling lies
Well, that's no surprise.
Can you see them?
See right through them.
They have no shield
No Secrets to reveal.

It doesn't matter what they say.
In the jealous games people play.
Hey, Hey, Hey.
Our Lips Are Sealed.

There's a weapon.
Which we must use.
In our defense silence.
Spreading Rumors
So far from true.
Dragged up from the underworld.
Just like some precious pearl.

Pay no mind to what they say
It doesn't madder anyway.
Our Lips Are Sealed.

Hush my darlin'.
Don't you cry.
Cryin' angels.
Forget their lies.

Pay no mind to what they say.
It doesn't madder anyway.
Hey, Hey, Hey.
Our Lips Are Sealed [3x]

2004-06-24T20:09:00.000-07:00

When the daylight's gone and you're on your own
And you need a friend just to be around
I will comfort you, I will take your hand
And I'll pull you through, I will understand

And you know that

I'll be at your side, there's no need to worry
Together we'll survive through the haste and hurry
I'll be at your side
If you feel like you're alone, and you've nowhere to turn
I'll be at your side

If life's standing still and your soul's confused
And you cannot find what road to choose
If you make mistakes (make mistakes)
You can't let me down (let me down)
I will still believe (still believe)
I will turn around

And you know that

I'll be at your side, there's no need to worry
Together we'll survive through the haste and hurry
I'll be at your side
If you feel like you're alone, and you've nowhere to turn
I'll be at your side

I'll be at your side
I'll be at your side
You know that

I'll be at your side, there's no need to worry
Together we'll survive through the haste and hurry
I'll be at your side
If you feel like you're alone, you've got somewhere to go,
'Cos I'm right there
I'll be at your side, I'll be right there for you
(Together we'll survive) through the haste and hurry
I'll be at your side
If you feel like you're alone, you've got somewhere to go,
'Cos I'm at your side

I'll be right there for you
I'll be right there for you, yeah
I'm right at your side

tis song totally rocks lo.
so applicable to every single frenship.
okae.wad crapping me.wahahaha
haiz.
my lao gor bought me a cinnamoroll cushion frm hongkong.
it needs a lil washing lah.
but its v big lah.hehehe
i tell u argh.
grace is a v horrible person one lo.
cum my board and flood me.
momok one.
later must go out wif her and lyd.
still haven called lj.sigh.
and i still got hw not done yet.
im so dead.
deadmeat for sure.
went to watch best bet yesterdae.
it rocks man!
totally lah.
hafta go out soon le...
need to go pack sum stuff
and change sth frm my template.
then done le.
yepps.
so long peeps.
hehe.=D

2004-06-24T06:47:00.000-07:00

im back frm camp.
so fun!
but if da sec 1s bothered to help[for the exception of some]
it wld haf been better.
damn pissed wif them lo.
i mean it takes a team to work well
and the sec 3s r not ur maids.
thx.

okae lah.
enuff of them.
i tink sec 3s haf the best time of our llives lah.
-minus all the work we hafta do.
hehe :p.
i still cant believe i got the sec 3 best camper award.
haha.
to tink i was tinking i haven done a good job.
me just kept complaining and slacking.
lydia tinks that they juz wanna "console" me.
if u noe wad i mean.
oh well.
i got a carrot that is no longer fresh
and a bag of bread dat is supposed to expire todae.
so the sec 3s helped me cleared some yesterdae.
we shared the bread.
haha.

grace: wad u mean abt mrs tan?!
lijing: wheres my letter?!

aiyah.
gtg le.
hafta go do some blog stuff then go bed
and wake up for the england match next morning.
and kajiao my brother abt my present.
wahahha.
*im greedy*

2004-06-20T06:57:00.000-07:00

heyee...testing.:P